Lavenders green, lavenders blue (spot conlon love story)

Chapter 12- Of course

"Aw come on jack nobody's comin" whined skittery. He was always such a downer. We all sat in the square awaiting the arrival of of the people we had handed our paper out to. I sat on a concrete step playing with the ends of my long shirt. 

"Wouldja lighten up skittery, peoples is comin they just ain't here yet"  jack looked hopeful, I was just distracted "we got Brooklyn comin right addy" he looked at me. I looked up suddenly caught by surprise because I had no idea if spot and the rest of Brooklyn were coming at all. 

"Uh, Yeah, well, thing is they didn't really say whether or not they was comin" I said and I could tell by his face that I had let him down. 

"Whadaya mean they didn't say? Didn'tcha ask?" I looked down at the ground.

"Yeah well I meant to but I kind of um.." and just then out of nowhere as parade of kids and workers, women, children, a whole band for god sakes, comes rushing down the street.  Jack got distracted really fast and I sighed. Avoiding confrontations is a speciality of mine.   I also couldn't help but be excited.  All of these people read our paper and came out here it was really a big moment. But the moment became so much bigger all with one word.

"Brooklyn!" 

I turn around in time to see spot leading all his newsies down the street jack shakes his hand I just stand and stare. In all the excitement I couldn't make my way through the crowds to see him. I didn't really know if I wanted too either.  I mean yesterday we're friends and then we're not and then he...kisses me...which I still can't get my mind around. Anyway, point is it wasn't until Jack and Davey had gone in and been in Pulitzer's office for a little while that I actually got close enough to possibly start an interaction. He's like 5 feet away from me lookin up at the building, he's by himself which is weird. I try to think of the best way to approach him. A wander in his general area for at least 7 minutes, completely unaware of how awkward I'm being until finally he speaks up.

"Ya gonna talk ya me or are ya just gonna stand there lookin like ya in from outta town" 

"Oh! Spot. I uh...didn't even see you there."  God why am I so awkward it's not like it's the first time I've ever talked to the boy, I try to tell myself but it obviously doesn't work because the next thing that comes out of my mouth is "I am doing just dandy may I say" DANDY? Dandy? It's 1899 Adelaide no one says dandy anymore, I want to crawl in a while and die. Spot just smirks and keeps looking at the building. How is he still looking at that building? I don't think he's looked at me once. To be fair though my eyes are plastered to my feet.  Until I finally muster enough courage to look up and take a step towards the post he is leaning on. Cmon addy- I tell myself, be a woman. I clear my throat.

"So pretty big success huh?" I say 

"Not yet, they is still in there who knows what's goin on"

I look at my hands and start fiddling with them. I think he can tell that I was uncomfertable because he finally looked over at me. 

"That's not to say that it won't be a big success. Like I said who knows what's goin on up there they could be winnin" 

"I think they are" 

"Do ya?"

"Yeah I do, you shoulda seen jack and Davey getting all ready with what they was gonna say" I look up finally and he's looking at me and we just look at each other.  I don't know why but it just felt like the right time to bring up what had happened.

"So um spot" I look away and up at the building, he follows suit "um I was wonderin the other night when I came over to tell you about this whole thing-"  he cleared his throat a bit and looked The other way like he was looking for something but he wasn't. 

"Yeah what about it"

"When ya know..you kinda" I didn't want to finish the sentance "dontcha wanna talk about it?"

"Not really" he still was looking away. 

"Oh. Yeah no...me neither" my heart pounded in my chest. Of course he didn't want to talk about it. It was a mistake, of course he didn't think of me that way. My head started to hurt and the pounding in my chest grew more intest as I stopped leaning on the post and stood up. "I'm gonna..go" I walked away feeling humiliated and confused. This was so stupid I had never felt this way before. Why was a being such a wimp, I was never like this before.  That's when jack and Davey came out and jack got les up on his shoulders and he screamed

"We beat em!!" Cheers came from the crowd it was like an explosion and I smiled and I hugged jack and I pretended to be happy with all of them but I wasn't happy. Who was I kidding. I just had to plaster on a smile until tonight. Everything is fine, just fine.  

Of course he didn't think of me that why. What a stupid thought. Of course he didn't think I was special, of course he didn't think I was beautiful and of course he didn't really want to kiss me. How could I have been so stupid.

Of course.

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A/N hey guys so I hope this chapter isn't confusing, I'm back btw!! I don't know if people like this story, I don't know if people even read this story but I'm still writing because I have a lot of fun writing it so....yeah. Leave a comment or something!!! (Please It's my last hope...hahajkjk, no actually tho comment)