Lavenders green, lavenders blue (spot conlon love story)

Chapter 13-oh yeah? Yeah.

Lavenders green dilly dilly 

Lavenders blue 

If you love me dilly dilly 

I will love you

Lavenders blue dilly dilly 

Lavenders green

If you are king dilly dilly 

I'll be your queen

I had pulled myself together since earlier. I was being stupid. Girls don't act that way. Girls are stronger than that.  There's no reason to be crying over a stupid boy anyway.  I just needed to brush it off.  If I act like I don't care then eventually I just wont. The strike is over now so I won't have to see spot ever again so it doesn't even matter. And that's the moment it dawned on me. I'm not going to see spot ever again. Things are going to go back to the way they were and before this strike I didn't even know spot existed. I wish I could talk to ellie right now. I wish she had been at the crusade. Mush probably missed her, I missed her too It has been forever since I last talked to her. I'll go see her tomorrow.  

I was caught up in all my thoughts. I rested my head on the bar above me my legs dangled down to the city as I sat on the fire escape.  Then he window opens and jack pops his head out.  

"Heyy addy why arentcha in here celebratin?"

"I jus needed some fresh air"

"Well come on everyone's here will ya stop being so moody and come celebrate please"

"Says the king of I want space and fresh air" I scoff

"Ah shuddup you know I changed me mind" 

"And I'm glad ya did" I say and smile to join the rest of the boys downstairs to celebrate.

I find mush and he puts his arm around me.

"Ya see here fellas!" He said to the boys around him, a drink in one hand the other one hugging he close. "Dis goil here didn't let nobody give up even when we wanted to. We beat em! Ain't dat right addy"

"Yeah dats right mush" I smile and squirm out of his grasp. I can't tell he's a bit drunk but hey it's a celebration. Mush is one of my bestest friends and I trust him even when he's drunk.  

I walk around the party a bit more.  Talking to people as I go. I've made it a good solid 10 minutes without even realizing that spot was there.  He finally catches my eye and walks over to me. 

"Ya brudda knows how to throw a good party even in this tiny lodging house"

"It ain't that tiny, don't act like you is all high and mighty just cuz your from Brooklyn" 

"Hey hey I'm not tryin ta start somethin kid I'm jus sayin" 

"I'm not a kid" my tone  is hostile and spot gets annoyed 

"What's your problem?" He asks looking at me confused and a little angry

"Nothin" I mumble and start to walk away

"No really I'd like to know. What's your big problem kid" 

"I'm not a kid" I say still walking away. I'm almost to the door when he grabs me by my sleeve. He looks mad.

"I don't care was you is and isn't I wanna know why you is acting like you hate me all the sudden" at this point his voice is raised and people start to look. I just roll my eyes and leave, slamming the door behind me. He stands still for a moment behind the closed door. Everyone is staring. He opens the door and follows me.

"Hey what the hell was that?!" He yells. I haven't gotten far but it's not like I have anywhere to go so what's the point it doesn't take him long to catch up to me and he grabs my arm I turn around and yank my arm from his grasp but I don't walk away.

"It was nothin can't ya just let it go geez"

"It didn't look like nothin what's your problem?!" His voice is still raised 

"Would you just stop" I say my voice raising then falling at the last second.

"Stop what?!"

 I look at him and he at me. Our faces are so close together, suddenly the noise of the city at night was gone and you could hear a pin drop. My face falls. And suddenly it all comes to me. Everything I want to tell him. I take one deep breath and say..

"Stop acting like you care and pretending to be my friend and then turning on me the last second. Stop getting my hopes up and then crushing them like I'm a voodoo dol kitbag you can just play with. Cuz I'm not spot I'm not and god it's so confusing when we're friends and then we're not and then we..kiss! We kiss god damnit and then we can't talk about it. And I get that you don't like me or whatever but-" and suddenly his lips are on mine. And it's so  familiar but so different. It catches me off guard. I haven't even had time to think and suddenly I'm kissing him back and I feel a tear come out of my eye. And other one. Seriously addy, I tell myself, now is not the best time to cry. And then the kiss is over.  I pull away and look at him.

"Is this the part where you run away and we never talk about this again?"

"God I hope not" he says and then kisses me again. I pull away again when it done. "I'm sorry addy" he says. I take a deep breath. "Oh no why are you cryin?" 

"I don't know" I say and wipe my face with the back of my hand. He takes me hands.

"I'm sorry about all of it.  Except that kiss before I'm not sorry about that" he says, I smile a bit and look down. He takes his hand and gently brings my eyes back up to his. "I didn't want to talk about the first kiss because I was scared. And now don't go tellin no one about that because spot Collin never gets scared. But I was a little nervous what you would say and what jack would say. Now about you saying I don't like you it's the exact opposite." 

"It is?" I whisper and sniffle a little. Making him smile 

"Yeah because I like  you a lot. You are the most amazing beautiful goil I ever saw" I think this was the first time I ever saw him smile and not smirk. 

"I like you a lot too"

"Oh yeah?" He said smiling 

"Yeah" I said smiling back

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A/N ok I think this chapter is ADORABLE. I hope it makes sense. School starts tomorrow and it makes me sad