Lavenders green, lavenders blue (spot conlon love story)

Chapter 19- A lot of crying

I hate crying. Lately though I'm finding that I do it more and more often. As much as I hate crying, sometimes it's what's necessary to make you feel better. This, unfortunately, was not one of those times.  As much as I cried and ran I did not feel better.  It didn't help that when I had nearly arrived at my destination I was stopped by one of the biggest newsies I had ever seen. Oh yeah, and I still had tears coming down my cheeks.  

"Scuse me" I said and tried to go around him,  but he moved in front of me.  

"And just where do you think you're goin?" The boy crossed his arms.  My expression hardened.

"Ta see spot" I said more assertively.

"Ha" he scoffed "yeah right, and I'm on my way to visit the president. Go home little girl. Spot doesn't want to see you"  who did this guy think he was? I was becoming very annoyed.

"And how would you know if spot does or does not want ta see me?"  Truth was, after the way I treated him last time I saw him I didn't even know if spot would want to see me.  But I couldn't let this fool know that.

"Because spots got plenty a goils and doesn't need anudda one.  Turn around doll face" what? What does that mean? Spot has plenty of girls?  I was about to turn around and find some other place to go, it was too late to visit Ellie.  I would probably just find an alley or a bench. 

"Ay pony, who ya got?" A voice called from behind the big boy.  Also pony? His name was pony? I had to hide my laughter.

"No one spot just some little fan girl who claims that she can just come in and see you wheneva she wants" pony glared down at me. 

"Lemme see" I heard spot say.  Pony stepped aside and I turned around.  Quickly I saw spots smirk face from his face.  I just looked sad.  I couldn't tell if he wanted me to come in or not.  I couldn't tell anything from his expression because it was one I had never seen before. So I just stood there and looked at him and he at me.  Until finally he said, so quietly I wouldn't have heard him if it wasn't night time when almost everyone was asleep.  

"Addy" 

I started walking towards him and that turned into a jog and then a full on run until I reached him and he hugged me. And I hugged him.  And it was perfect. Still tears came from my eyes, but a new kind, happier years because I was right where I needed to be.  Sometimes when you cry you feel better, this was not one of those times.  This time all I needed to feel better was this moment. This hug from spot.  And I felt better.  We stood there in the hug for what felt for forever and yet it wasn't long enough.  

"I'm sorry, about what I said earlier"  I said still holding him tightly.

"What are you doing here" he said into my ear.  

"Long story" I told him.  He finally let go from the hug and took my hand.  We walked to the lodging house. I whipped my head around and flashed a smile at pony.  Returned by a glare.  I think we could be friends someday

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"And so he kicked me out"  I had told spot the whole story about coming home and jack ignoring me and then asking me who I trust more.  I was sitting on his bed and he was pacing around the room with his arms folded.  He didn't say anything but I could tell that he was thinking hard. "So now I'm not sure where I'm gonna stay.  I was thinking, maybe if you wouldn't mind I could stay here tonight and then stay nights at Ellie's and days just walking around. I couldn't stay days at Ellie's of course because her mom would freak."  Spot only laughed a little and then walked over to me. 

"Addy you can stay here as long as you need to"  

"You wouldn't mind?"

"I want you to stay here"he smiled. I looked down at my lap a bit embarrased by the attention.  

"But, your guys...I don't think-" he cut me off by laughing.

"Pony give ya a hard time?" He asked. 

"Um yeah kinda" I remembered back to pony saying spot had lots of girls.  I shifted a bit at the uncomfertable thought.  Did he still have lots of girls coming over? What would he do with them? I shuttered a bit and spot noticed because he asked what was wrong. "Oh, uh" I decided I wouldn't ask spot about it. It's not like he had asked me to be his girl or anything. He wasn't my beau so, so what if he was with other girls it's not like he's my property or anything. "Nothing, just pony doin some heckling". 

"Well he's just trained ta do that, but if it gets too much youse let me know and I'll take care of it."

"Ok" I said still looking down at my hand in my lap.

"Now you should get some sleep. You're probably still hurting from before"  he started unbuttoning his shirt.  

"How did you know?" I asked.  He turned around and smirked at me. 

"I just know" his shirt was off now and I could feel myself blushing.  I see boys without shirts on everyday because I live with a bunch of them, or at least I did. I still do I guess, just different boys.  This was different though for some reason. Why don't I blush around race and mush when they sleep without shirts, but when spot so much as unbuttons his my face goes redder than a strawberry.  Inevitably he noticed and smirked but continued in getting ready for bed.  

"So should I go downstairs and set up a chair or something?"  I asked him. I wasn't sure what the sleeping arrangements were.  

"For what?" He asked 

"Well for sleeping" I stood up and walked towards the door.

"No your sleeping in the bed" he said very nonchalantley. 

"But then where will you sleep?" I walked away from the door and leaned at the edge of the bed. 

"The floor" I watched him set out a very thin sheet on the floor.  

"No, spot that practically the hard wood you can't sleep on the floor." 

"Why not? I did it last night"  

It had not crossed my mind that I had slept in spots bed last night and so he slept on the floor.  

"Because you'll hurt your back, and it's your bed, so you get to sleep in it, I can sleep on the floor" 

"Oh yeah?" He smirked and walked over to me. He held my hands and said, "I would rather hurt my back, than have you hurt yours."  

I looked up at him and smiled. "Yeah? Well I'm sleeping on the floor so the bed is all yours."

"You are stubborn aren't you?"  He said. And then he smirked, before I knew he he was picking me and carrying me all the way across the room and laying me down on the bed. "Now sleep" he commanded, then he smiled and lauded down on the floor. It was a comfortable bed, I had to admit.  I dozed off and in a matter of minutes I was asleep.  Despite all of the chaos and bad things that had happened to me in the past week or so, it was the happiest I had been in a long time.  

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"Addy?"

It was the middle of the night when I heard spot say my name, I was already awake because I heard people talking downstairs, I was just laying looking at the ceiling and aparantley spot was awake too because he said my name. 

"Yeah?" I whispered back to him.

"I went ta hattan yesterday, and told jack what happened, I told him not to yell at you and get all mad. I'm sorry that I went behind ya back, but I knew you didn't want him to yell atchya." 

Spot had taken time out of his day and somehow bargained jack into not yelling at me. How did he do it?  If there's one consistent thing in my life it's jack yelling at me when I mess up.  I would usually get mad when someone went behind my back though, but not this time, this time I was just greatful. 

"Thanks spot" I smiled, and even though it was dark and I could see, I think spot was smiling too.

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It's spring break so that's why I have so much time to do all this writing. Lol because it's not like I'm going anywhere.  Ok anyway keep reading, I love this chapter, I love writing this story.

- Rory