Youth | Lynn Gunn

Chapter Nine

Now I'm just chasing time with a thousand dreams
I'm holding heavy

I stood at the small stage watching Lynn move around, helping fixing the stage up. A genuine happiness on her face as she was able to be herself.

She was able to have the one who mattered the most around, me. Every now and again she would steal glances at me as i would be speaking to either Brian and Alex.

I listened as she practiced, out of knowing her almost a year she had yet to tell me she could sing. She didn't once tell me that it was something she had dreamed of till the phone calls.

She wrapped her arms around my waist, her lips at my neck as she pressed gentle kisses there. Her breath on my neck as she listened to me speak.

I grabbed her hands as she held me there in the same spot, her body there where it belonged. The final puzzle pieces coming together as our life started together.

All of the plans that had been made for five months through phone calls all coming together, i would be living with her.

I would be seeing the world with the three people that had given me some sort of hope to not give up when i had got cancer, when my ex boyfriend dumped me in the hospital.

When i had lost my hair little by little, she still thought was beautiful. She still saw me for me, if i was honest i was in love with her. My whole entire existence would be shitty without her.

She pressed her lips to my ear, "Come here."

She grabbed my hand and lead me to the back of the venue, i asked no questions as i followed behind her.

The sight of her finally in front of me, i was still getting used too. It had only been five hours but just having her near.

She pulled me into a room, her name on the door as she chuckled and shut the door. She wrapped her hands around my neck as her lips found their place, where they belonged for so long.

I laid my head on chest, listening to her heartbeat. She rubbed my lower back holding me close. The scent of her filling the room, i missed this being near her.

It had been far too long, i had been upset and depressed for too long.

"I love you." She whispered.

I looked up to her, her green eyes on my hazels. She grabbed my wrist as she looked at the bracelet. Her fingers running over
the beads. She smiled as she remembered that day.

"I can't believe you still have this. It's been a full year and you still have this thing." She laughed.

A knock at the door came through, "Stage time."

She nodded and looked to me, her hand patting at my shoulder. I groaned, i didn't want to let go. I didn't want to have to share her with anyone else but this was her dream and this was something she had wanted.

I released my grip on her to let her do the very thing she loved, i was lucky enough to see it. I was lucky enough to see everything.

The way she moved around the stage, her blonde hair moving around as she got into the music. The crowd singing along to the songs as the guys jumped around with her.

It was all so real, it was all the very things she wanted. The bright light hit me as i stood at the barricade. I began to feel weak, my legs shook as i held my grip to the barrier.

The light moved from my face and i was able to enjoy the show, i was moving around and happy. The moment changing as the light hit me again. The room had gone dark, it was silent.

I was cold, i could hear voices. Screaming and crying, i could feel everything but my own body.