Loving You Again

Ch.12: Realization

[Edited:]

*Cassandra's POV.*

"Cass?" I turned around just as I closed the front door. My smile fading from saying goodnight to Harry.

"Hey." I smiled softly. Katie licked her lips before speaking.

"We need to talk." she said. I nodded and signaled for her to follow me. I slid the back door open and guided Katie to sit on the swing.

The remaining petals of the flowers from what me and Harry were playing with, were scattered on the couch and I smiled at the moment that had ended just over minutes ago.

He didn't push it, he only held me until I didn't need it, but deep inside, I let my guards down for awhile, because whether or not my mind knew it, Harry was being my friend, best friend, because no one would've made me felt any more protected than he had.

He hadn't asked anything about the conversation earlier, and all he did was brush away strands of my hair while smiling. He didn't need to be a listener, all he needed to do was hold me.

Honestly, I can say that, that's all he needed to do, and I can tell he liked it as much as I did. That has always been his job. Even when we were 6 he would always hold my hand when I was sad. He would always make me feel happy with just that.

Harry had showed me the comfort I needed the whole day today. I loved Katie's company but she couldn't hold me like Harry can, she can't lull me to relaxation like he can.

I bit my lip letting my thoughts free, too mentally exhausted and frustrated to object.

"What exactly happened earlier?" Katie asked. I started picking at the petals.

"I had somewhat rejected Ashton." I said biting my lip, as the flashes of him lashing out on me in anger took over. Katie stared at me as if to continue.

"Why?" She finally asked.

"I thought about what you said earlier," I paused and my eyes flickered to the back door. I spotted eyes staring at mine and I smiled softly. I knew he was angry, and I honestly didn't blame him.

"I guess inside I was telling myself over and over to love Ashton as more than a friend. But deep inside I only liked him as a brother and yet I went with what my brain said, when in love you follow your heart instead." I said. I faced Ashton during all of this and forgot that Katie was here completely. I wanted to say all this to him, because he hadn't let me explain before.

"I played him in a way he never deserved and for that I'm so sorry." I whispered. I kept Harry out of that because in a way he wasn't relevant to this.

Plus, I didn't want to admit my feelings if I could barely even comprehend what I felt within myself.

"Apology accepted." Ashton stepped out and he grinned. I smiled and stood up to hug him.

"I'm sorry." I whispered again.

"No, I'm sorry." he pulled away slightly to look at me. "You'll always be my best friend Cass." I smiled in the crook of his neck, pulling him back and nodded.

"Group hug!" Katie squealed. I laughed as I felt her arms wrap around both of us.

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"Okay ready?" I asked as I looked at Katie through the mirror. Katie nodded softly and I took my hands away to reveal her makeup. She grinned as she looked at me through the mirror. "So?" I asked curiously.

"What do you think?" Katie asked grinning wide. I smiled and shrug. "It's amazing Cass." I looked down at my hands shyly.

"It isn't that big of a deal Katie." I said walking to the edge of my bed and staring at the beautiful black lace dress. I mean it was true; all I did was do Katie's makeup for her date with Luke. It's not like I made a miracle.