Loving You Again

Ch.21: Into Hell

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"Just wake her up!" I heard a voice say loudly. I groaned in response as I felt for a pillow or something in reach to block out everything and anything that produced sound in any way shape or form.

"Can you shut up Katie!" Ashton hissed quietly. "Just let her sleep a bit longer. There's nothing wrong with a few more minutes." he whispered. If I had energy I would've applauded him for being a true friend at times like these.

I felt a cold breeze and hugged myself for warmth. I was tired and wanted to sleep but people just wouldn't be quiet.

I heard a sigh and then quietness, finally. I slowly closed my eyes drifting off again, until people just had to start talking again.

"You won't give up will you?" Katie sighed. I heard the faint squeak of the couch and then another. Ugh, when I thought I would finally go back to my peaceful sleep people start talking once again.

"How can I Kate?" Ashton whispered. "I swear the moment I saw her I felt something different I've never felt."

By now I was fully awake. My eyelids still closed but I was conscience.

Not again, not this again.

"I don't know if it's even possible to fall in love at first sight, but I think I did. I fell in love with her, while she fell in love with him." Ashton sighed.

"Ash-" Katie whispered and I pinched my eyes tighter. This is just a dream, I repeated to myself.

I wasn't going to wake up to this, not today, not when I had enough to feel like shit for.

"I know Katie. She's not for me and I should get over it before I get hurt more but I won't give up." Ashton sighed and again the couch made that squeaky sound.

I felt the couch dip next to me. "I don't care if it kills me, but as long as I'm close to her, as long a I'm in her life, I'll be okay." I felt warmth on my cheek and then his lips on it. "I can't help but love her more than anything, because in truth she's my everything."

I gulped and felt my eyes hot, and my cheeks flush. What have I done? Ashton loved me! He loved me, and what have I done? I've broken his heart.

I tasted bile in my throat at the sudden outburst, and felt gross at myself for being a selfish bitch.

"Why hasn't anyone woken her up yet?" I heard my mum ask. I didn't want to wake up anymore. I wanted this to be a nightmare, I wanted to wake up in Ashton's arms. I wanted to forget Harry, I wanted this to all be over.

Or grow up old with a lot of dogs, because in truth I didn't deserve anyone's love.

"Cassandra!" I felt my mum shake me and I groaned. I didn't want to open my eyes, because all that would come out would be tears.

I felt someone tug my legs and push me off the couch. I fell face down and groaned in pain.

"I fucking hate you Katherine." I muttered on the carpet. Katie laughed and I felt arms wrap around me and help me up.

I stood up with my eyes closed, scared to see Ashton. "Are you okay?" his funny giggle rang in my ears, which made me want to cry more.

I just turned and opened my eyes to find my mum with crossed arm staring at me.

"What time is it?" I asked mindlessly, walking to the bathroom.

"Hurry up Grinch, we'll be late." Luke yelled from somewhere. I groaned in response. I was not in the mood to be funny.

The guy I thought I loved, loved me. The guy I love, well I just feel retarded to even be loving him again.

"Why so mad babe?" Suddenly Harry's chest was in my face. I looked up and smiled weakly.

"C'mon Harry, you should know me by now." I told him.

"I know. But you were only grumpy when something bothered you." He simply said.

I shrugged and opened the door to the bathroom, "Just tired." I told him as I closed the door. The last I saw was his dimpled smile and I felt my heart skip a beat.

What the hell have I gotten myself into?

A/N:

Too short I know but it was on purpose, but I will update soon. So chill.