Forever More (ON HOLD)

Goodbye

Matthew Pov

I'm sure to everyone else it may look as if I'm admiring this painting, but I can't help but think about my encounter with Elena. I know it was wrong, I know I shouldn't have kissed her back.

In that moment, I wasn't sure what possessed me to do it, but it happened and I can't deny it. Now that I've had some time to think, I can finally decipher what that was. I still love Elena deeply, I hate to admit it but it's the truth. I love Elena, I always have, but things are different now. And things will never go back to the way they use to be.

And if I want to move on from this then I have to be honest with myself and honest to Rosie.

"Hey"
Rosie's soft hand gently touched my shoulder, "you alright?" She asked genuinely concerned, "you've been starring at this painting for an hour"

I blinked, I hadn't realize it been that long
"You ready to go?" She asked.

I nodded and preceded to follow her out the door as she hugged everyone goodbye.

It's been a long night, mostly for Rosie. Her best friend Brytaney had her hostage for the whole night, I just stood back and observed everything.

We walked to the car in silence, I got into the driver seat feeling nervous. In all honesty, I love Rosie and I don't want to let her go. She's been a bright light filled with warmth ever since she came into my life. But it'll be selfish of me to hold onto her because I still have some form of love for Elena.

"Matthew, are you going to tell me what's bothering you? You've been acting weird all night" Rosie asked, worry coursing her soft features.

I was hoping she would be too tired to talk about it.

I sighed deeply, "I'll explain everything when we get to the house"

I looked over at her, it looks as if she knows that its going to be bad news. I grabbed her hand squeezing it gently. I really hope she understands.

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We got to the house finally. I parked the car and walked up to the house to unlock the door and waited until she got in to close it.

"Okay Mathew, I'm not waiting any longer, you either tell me what's bothering you or you're sleeping on the couch for the whole night" She joked lightly, but I could tell it was forced.

I took a seat on the sofa. "Rose, I want you to know that I love you and I would never intentionally do anything to hurt you" I said looking into her eyes.

She eyed me wearily, "okay?"

"Elena and I...we-"

"You had sex?"

I frowned shaking my head vigorously "no! God no!"

"okay, so what happened?" Her eyes are big and blue with bewilderment as she stood there, waiting for my response.

"W-we kissed and it almost led to...that"

It was silent for a minute, I looked up at her and there she was looking at me like I just killed her puppy. Her eyes held so much hurt and pain.

"You know the crazy part is, I'm not surprised, I'm just disappointed" she walked away, walking up the stairs.

I watched her leave then hurried and followed her. I ran into the room to see her getting her clothes together. She grabbed her brushes from her art show, she grabbed her coat, and finally her purse.

"Rosie please hear me out" I croaked.

She turned around sitting her things down. She starred at me, her lips are in a thin line, her eyes are cold and she whipped the stray tears away from her face, "I'm listening"

My throat went dry, her cold demeanor catching me off guard so I cleared my throat, "I love you and I swear I didn't mean to hurt you. You have to know that you're the one that I want to be with"

"Do you love her?"

"I love you-"

"Do you still love her?!"

I sighed deeply, "I do but it's not like that-"

She ran up to me and slapped me so hard my face turned.

"Then you should've told me that from the beginning" she said through clenched teeth.
"Shame on me, I knew what I was getting myself into. I knew you still had feelings for her the day she showed up"

"Elena is not the one I want to be with! I want to be with you Rosie!"

"Mathew! Are you hearing yourself!? You make no sense! How can you have feelings for the both of us but want to be with me?!"

"Okay okay I know this sounds crazy but you have to understand! I-I just.... I just need you! I need you with me"

"Gosh I can't even look at you" She looked away shaking her head.

"Rosie please believe me, I didn't realize I still harbored feelings for Elena until recently. The love I have for her is nothing compared to the love I have for you. I'm in love with you Rosie, I have been ever since the first time I laid eyes on you. Please don't leave"

She sniffled, "Mathew, I think there's some things you need to figure out and there's some things that I need to figure out too. I think it's best for us to do that alone"

She grabbed her things giving me one last tearful look, "goodbye Mathew"

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