Forever More (ON HOLD)

Try Again

"I feel like I should be angry or mad. Maybe sad? I don't know Richie this all happened so fast you know? One minute I'm having dinner with my beautiful girlfriend and the next minute I'm a father." I stressed to Richie as we sat at the bar.

The two of us had a long day at work and decided on taking some free time away from it all.

"I know it is kind of crazy. I would be upset that I would have to deal with Elena though, after all the shit she put you through?!" He took a drink of his beer.

I shook my head, "that's the crazy thing about it. I don't feel mad about that anymore. I mean, it's not like I'm gonna up and be with her and be a family or whatever, but I just feel like I owe it to carter. I don't want him to be without a father. I had to grow up without one and I wouldn't want that for him"

He nodded his head, "you know, carter may actually be what's keeping you from being so angry with her"

"Yeah, I think you're right. I feel like we can be civil though and just co-parent"

Richie took another swig of his carona and so did I, "hey, do you know if she still talks to Tasha?"

I frowned laughing a little, "you know if this was three years ago I would be mad that you asked me that" I chuckled, "I haven't seen that crazy broad since then and I don't plan on it"

"Oh so Tasha and Elena aren't like lady killers together anymore?"

I shook my head, "I don't know and I sure as hell don't wanna find out. I feel like that would complicate things more than they already are. To be honest though, I could care less about that girl"

He nodded, "true. Well, me Andrew and nicki are going to Will's (Richie and Mathews old boss) grave site tomorrow morning. You know it's his birthday tomorrow and since he past last year we were gonna go and pay our respects. You should come"

"Of course I'll come, he was like the uncle I never had"

"Yeah, he was such a old whore though"

We laughed and the night continued like that with us reminiscing about how things use to be. He spoke about Rachel (Richie's girlfriend) and how things are going between the two, they seem to be doing well.

*****

I returned home seeing rosy lying on the couch flicking through the tv. She perked up once she saw me, "hey babe I missed you, how was your night?"

I sighed sitting down next to her and she laid her head on my lap continuing to flick through the channels. "It was good, Richie and I had a chance to catch up on old times"

She nodded, "have you figured out what you're gonna do about carter"

"I'm gonna take care of him. I just don't know how this co-parenting thing is gonna work. I feel like it could be good you know? I mean I feel like Elena and I can be civil about everything"

"You're not angry with her?"

I frowned, "about what?"

"About the fact that she kept your son away from you for so long"

I sighed, "I am, but I understand her reasons behind it. I just wish she would've had the balls to tell me sooner"

"Honestly though Matty, if she would've told you as soon as she found out, that would mean you would still be in jail and I'm pretty sure you wouldn't have wanted your son seeing you for the first time behind bars. So, in a weird fucked up way, I think everything happened the way it was supposed to happen"