Forever More (ON HOLD)

Tell Her

Elena's Pov

"YOU FUCKED HIM?!?!?!?"

"Shhhh! You'll wake Carter. And no, God no" I put my hands up to my face hiding how embarrassed I am. "But I almost did"

"Oh my god Elena I told you! I told you this shit would get messy!"

"I know! I thought I had it all under control, but I got caught up in the heat of the moment. He started apologizing for all that he did and I was crying and one thing led to another and before I knew it he was on top of me"

Tasha sighed, "so what are you gonna do now?"

"I don't know"

"Do you still love him?"

I shook my head, "I love him but I'm not in love with him. This is so fucked up. We just got back on talking terms and with the way he bolted out of here, I don't think he's coming back"

"Elena, don't you think you're being a little dramatic? He wouldn't just leave you guys like that"

"He almost did"

"Yeah but it was only for like two days. Can you blame the poor guy? He had just found out that you're still friends with the conniving bitch that helped you put him in jail. Not only that, but his son is calling me auntie."

I sat silenced, not really knowing what to say to that.

She sighed, "look, I never liked Mathew, but with the way you talk about him and how good he is with Carter, I really don't think he's gonna up and leave you guys. To be completely honest, Mathew has changed."

She's right. I know she's right. Mathew definitely has changed. I would be a fool to believe that he would leave us. He just needs some time.

"Maybe I'll shoot him a email tomorrow and see if he'd be willing to talk about it"

"What are you going to tell him?"

"I don't know" I sat back on the couch starring up at the ceiling, "it was so strange the sensation I got when he touched me. It was like nothing I've ever experienced before"

"Hum, I guess the question I should be asking is, do you think he wants you back?"

I shook my head, "no I don't. He just got caught up in the moment. I know and he knows that we could never be like we used to be. As much as I want for us to be a family, I know that we could never really truly be happy together. There's just too much damage."

"I agree"

"I think I'm going to wait until he contacts me and just give him some time" I paused,
"You know, I can't help but think about how that girl is going to take it when he tells her what happened."

"If he tells her what happened"

I frowned, "you don't think he'll tell her?"

She shrugged, "I don't know"

"Well, I hope he does. She doesn't deserve that."

We sat in silence for a little while until Tasha finally got up, "this causes for some wine" she got up giddily running to the kitchen.