Houston
Beyoncé' Knowles
My eyes go big, and I freeze. "Wait, I'm sorry, say that one more time." I say looking straight at Tina.
She sighs and looks at me. "I said that your next in line Bey." She says. I sit there in silence, letting what she just said process.
"That doesn't make any fucking sense. How am I next in line, when his kids are the only ones that are able to take over?" I ask. Tina runs her hands up and down her thighs nervously, not making eye contact with.
"Mom!" Solange says. "How is she next?" She says, her voice wavering.
"I'm so sorry baby." She says looking at me with tears welling up in her eyes. "I know I should've told you this a long time ago, but I didn't think you were ready or wanted to know." She says, the tears now rolling down her wrinkled cheeks.
"Tell me what Tina?" I say, anger slowly building the longer she doesn't spit it out.
"The reason your father treated you different than he treated your sister, is because..." she says, shaking and pausing before continuing. "Matthew is not your biological father. Dominic is."
Oh fuck no! I can't do this.
"Are you fucking kidding me right now?" I say, closing my eyes and putting my head in my hands. "All this time I thought Matthew was treating me like fucking shit because there was something wrong me, WITH ME! You know how much I hated myself for not being able to reach the expectations he made for me?! And now after all these years, all this fucking time you had to tell me, and it was all because you couldn't keep your fucking legs closed!" But now my whole body is shaking and all I see is red.
"What the FUCK kind of mother watches her child get beat up and broken down emotionally, physically and mentally every single fucking day, and sits there and does NOTHING!" I scream.
Tina just shakes her head not saying anything.
"You know what.." I say chuckling angrily. "I can't...I can't do this." I stand up getting ready to walk away, but I feel Nicki grab my wrist.
"Baby let her explain." She says, concern flashing across her face.
I shake my head. With the way I'm feeling right now, me going off on her is the least of her worries right now. "Any other time I would...but right now I can't even look at her without wanting to put my hands on her. I need to go cool down before I do something I regret." She nods her head and lets my wrist go. I thought about going outside and taking a walk, but the last time I decided to do that I was raped so, I'm just going to go up the room and think.
Onika Maraj-Knowles
The hurt that consumed Bey's face after Tina told her the secret that she's been holding from her for years, broke my heart. When I met Bey she was so damaged and now I know to what extent. I can't even begin to imagine what she's feeling right now.
Tina is crying, and Solange is just sitting there with a blank expression on her face.
"Tina...why did you keep this from her?" I ask. I genuinely want to know how she could do that.
"I-I was scared Nicki. Even though Matthew treated her like shit, Beyoncé loved and still loves him, because he's the only father figure that she knows. I didn't want to take that away from her." She says through her sobbing. "I love her so much and I know that I fucked up, but she needed to know this, especially since David is trying to hurt her. I know she probably doesn't want shit to do with my right now, but I called Dominic when I knew that she was coming into town. He's on his way over here to speak to her." She says.
"Mom, do you really think that's a good idea right now after dropping that on her?" Solange says breaking her silence. "I mean damn, can she get some time to process what the fuck just happened?" She says, getting up and storming out of the room.
Tina puts her face in her hands and just cries. Even though I'm pissed at her for what she's done to Bey, but she made a mistake and she put herself in a situation that she didn't know how to handle. Everyone makes mistakes.
I get up from my seat on the couch and I walk over, kneeling beside Tina's side. I wrap my arms around her shoulder and she leans into me and just breaks all the way down. "I don't know what to do Nicki. I don't want to lose my daughter." She says shaking from her cries.
"I'll talk to her Tina, but I think bringing Dominic to come over, probably isn't a good idea right now." I say.
She nods her head, and wipes her face. "Let me call him and tel him to come another time. How long are you guys staying?" She asks.
"I honestly don't know. I'll see if I can convince her to stay a couple of days, but I'm not promising anything." I say standing up. "She'll come around Tina, you have to give her some time."
She nods her head and stands. She pulls me into a tight hug. "Thank you Onika. Thank you for being there for her when I wasn't. You don't know how much you mean to me, but most importantly to her. You being in her life has changed her for the better and I'm glad that she has someone she can trust and someone that she loves." She smiles and walks out of the room.
I run my fingers through my hair and I head to Bey's old room, hoping that she's in there. When I walk up the stairs, I see the door is closed. When I turn the knob, it's locked.
"Go away!" I hear Bey say from the other side of the door.
"It's me baby. Open the door please."
I hear the sound of muffled shuffling, and I hear the click of the lock. I turn the knob and I walk in. I close the door and I lock it before turning to look at her. She's laying down in the bed with her back turned to me, her shoulders lightly shaking.
"Baby..." I say walking towards the bed.
"Please Nika, I don't want to talk right now. Just please." She says, her voice hoarse from crying.
I sigh. "Ok. But we do have to talk eventually love. Especially since we have to be back in New York by tomorrow." I say, taking off my shoes and climbing into bed behind her. I wrap my arms around her waist, and I pull her close to me. "I love you Beyoncé, with all of my heart." I say. "We'll get through this together." I move her hair from her neck, and I place gentle kisses, feeling her relax into me.
She grabs my hand and squeezes it.
"I love you to Nika."
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Until next time...
-PJ🦋
