When It Rains- When a heart weeps|√

Chapter 21

The eye is the mirror of the soul.

-Other men's flowers.

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"Fight with yourself. Why fight with external foes? He who conquers himself will obtain happiness." I read and reread that quote again and again and again, that was written on the thought board in the assembly hall,in beautiful calligraphy fonts by some Cultural committee Girls who had just passed by me,after finishing this piece of art, not before giving me a genuine smile.

I didn't know why but that quotation was piercing through my soul. It was giving shivers down my spine ,making me question the deeds I'd committed in this past few months.

Was i wrong to force, myself upon her?
Should i give up on us?
Is it wrong to love someone?
Is it wrong to expect her love?

The thoughts were circling in my brain ,again and again making me wander over those sequence of events that had taken place in these past few months. Those acts i had initiated towards Sonia and those bitter reply I'd received in turn. From the very beginning of my love story ,every single thing was being recited by my brain with each passing minutes,Giving me goose bumps at the thought of those things I'd went through and the estimated consequences that could have been resulted.

The conversation with Sonia was nothing like I or any one among you ,could have ever anticipated.
In fact it was far ,far away to be called a 'her giving me a piece of her mind' conversation. Instead it was the conversation I'd never anticipated.

After those fun moments with boys, I,albeit receiving a satisfactory reply over those mysterious expression of the boys,still prepared myself for facing Sonia's wrath but that never happened because when i reached the place she'd invited me ,which was the back of the school's premises, i found Sonia already there ,strolling back and forth while biting her nails,something she ,only used to do when she felt extremely anxious.

"Hi " i used a monosyllabic word to grab her attention. I myself could feel my heart thumping in my chest when those brown eyes stopped on my face as Sonia blinked at me.

"Hello Surya." She replied and gave me a soft smile that had made my heart skip a beat unlike the response I'd forecasted.

I, like you people, had thought that i had to work hard to grab her attention and make her talk to me but here the things took the exact opposite turn . Instead of avoiding me ,similar to the act put up by a famous romantic novel's female lead. She, Herself not only invited me to talk but she even initiated the conversation as well,that too with confidence ,The confidence i couldn't muster up.