When It Rains- When a heart weeps|√

chapter 22

My astonished gaze did nothing to her when her determination filled eyes landed on my face and then rolled heavenwards where black clouds was filling up the sky. I too followed her gaze and found the sky filled up with dark clouds ,ready to drench the surface of earth by the droplets,I was feeling the sudden sensation in the air and the passion in my heart. I could feel the vibes from her body,even when I was standing at an adequate distance from her. Although her statement had been enough to make me dance in happiness but somewhere in my heart I knew that was not enough, there was more of it because I knew my love story was not that simple after all a love story wouldn't be a true one without fluctuations in it. My heart filled with overwhelming emotions at her confession at the same time I was feeling like the universe was working according to our love life because my heart was feeling the same heaviness ,experienced by those black clouds. I was also feeling that sudden urge to empty my heart by the way of either thunders of words or drops of tears,the same those black clouds were aspiring to go for. That sudden chilliness in the atmosphere wasn't enough to calm that volcano of emotions erupting in my heart and add to that her previous statement added fuel to the already raging fire in my heart because it thumped louder and faster in anticipation. A rise of hope filled my heart, even though I knew the hope would demolish soon when I heard those words slipped through her lips. I felt a wave of emotions burning in my heart. till then I was dying to hear those words from her mouth and indeed I would lie if I say I didn't like that feeling. I was appreciating it. I was appreciating that hope but the hope was soon shattered when her wet eyes met mine at the same time rain started to pour on the surface of earth. It was true that every living soul is connected with that supreme soul. Those heavy droplets of water was sharing my pain with me. The pain of emptiness, the feeling of sorrow. Indeed! First love is hard to get. I could feel the bond I had with Sonia and the love in the heart of the universe.

My eyes met her wet ones and then it happened,i felt that bond which only a couple in love can feel. I felt that knot we were tying with so many unasked, unsaid yet necessary in its own way,promises. The promise to hold our hands in best or worst situation. I could feel that every single thing only a couple in love could feel. I could feel Our soul met! I could feel every emotions of hers in those few moments and then I realized how wrong I was when i said i loved her because I didn't only love her but I had already given my heart to her. Even without her asking me and that day I also had allowed her take my soul with her  because I was incomplete without her and that day I felt a spark of love in her eyes as well. She was a part of mine and I felt the same in her. My heart understood her hollowness, her disappointment and her longingness. I waited for few minutes, for her to continue her half spoken sentence as my own tears mixed with those water droplets, falling straight from the heaven. In those moments,I'd read her soul like an open book which was craving for my love but was chained by several restrictions.

"Yes Surya!! I like you too,but not the way you want me to. I like you as a friend ,no more than that and you need to understand that. The things you are doing now a days ain't making any sense to me anymore. Moreover, they are hurting me. It's like I don't know who you are Surya and that left me to question myself again and again 'bout How are you Surya! Because this Surya is definitely not the Surya I used to know. In fact, this Surya is far away from the Surya I knew. Almost, contradictory.
Since when my Surya, that cute nerd Surya turned into a freaking stalker, since when my shy Surya started to approach me in that detrimental ways,Since when my introvert Surya started to scream his love which is not love in actuality,at front of the whole world,since when Surya! Since when!!" Sonia screamed it all in one go,right on my face. Her face reddened with the impact of those emotions capturing her heart. Her beautiful orbs started to glisten as she poured her heart out at front of me and then  Tears after tears started to leak through her brown orbs and a heart wrecking sob escaped her throat which pierced my heart into million pieces. I knew I had hurt her and she was waiting for an explanation from my side yet I stood mum.