This Crazy Life

Chapter 24

Shawn's POV:

Yesterday was insane. Speceifically the car ride from the hospital was insane. Gracie kissed me, she full on kissed my mouth for at least two seconds. Best. Day. Ever. I felt really bad about it because of her and Taylor, so I avoided her the rest of the day. Should I say something to her about it? Should I just pretend like nothing happened? Taylor is already wary with me, he sees the way I look at Gracie. I don't want to ruin our relationship, he's like a brother to me. He never did confront me about how I knew that Blake was the host of the party Gracie and Emmie were at. I know he wanted to though, I could literally see the curiosity in his eyes. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens. 

The whole rest of this week we have events every day. The same schedule as the first day, excpet without the punching and hospital trips. Fans have already heard what happened, the cover story is that some crazy fan tried to hurt Gracie, and we all defended her. It's close enough to the truth. Lets just hope no one ever does find out what really went down.

Gracie's POV:

I wake up the next morning to the sound of my phone ringing. It's Sarah. I haven't spoken to her yet about the diagnosis or anything, I knew this call was coming. What a way to start the morning. 

"Hey Sarah."

"Hello my dear. I'm downstairs at the cafe. Meet me here in ten mintues, okay?"

I agree and hang up the phone. I quickly change and throw my hair up, grabbing the manilla folder before I leave. I just want to see her. I spot Sarah sitting at a table in the corner, sipping coffee. Some papers are next to her. 

"Sarah!" I call as I hurry towards the table. She stands up and engulfs me in a warm hug. Her hugs have always made me feel so safe. We sit down opposite eachother. Sarah looks at me, not with pity, but with deep sadness in her eyes. 

"Gracie. This is going to be a hard road, a really hard road. We don't need to worry about financial issues, you're parents have already got that figured out. Everything is all set with the insurance companies in order to start your prep by the end of this week. All of the little details have been worked out., but I don't care about those. I'm worried about you, Gracie. This diagnosis is too much. No one can really handle this. I'm scared for how you are, for what you're feeling."

I take a deep breath. I don't want to have to deal with this right now. "I know it is. I know it's going to be hard, and I know that I'm not going to be able to live the same life as my friends. I know I might not have as much time-" I swallow hard. Don't cry Gracie, don't cry. "To live my life. Sarah, I know you're here because you want me to quit the tour and come home. I know that you're scared for me being alone with this and everything. I need to continue with this, I finally feel like there's a place where I fit in, Sarah. I finally feel like I belong somewhere. These people that I'm traveling with, they're my family. They make me feel like I'm worth something, like my life matters again. After Luke, I just felt worthless and like nothing. This tour, these people, they make me have faith again."

She gives me a long look. I see the gears turning in her head, I can tell she still doesn't want this for me. But if there's anything in this world Sarah turly understands, it's what it feels like when someone makes you feel small.

"Ok, Gracie. But you promise me one thing."

"Anything."

"You make these days count for something."