This Crazy Life

Chapter 25

The dates are a little off I think. Just roll with it. Sorry the last chapter was super boring I just needed to put information in there. 

ONE WEEK LATER

GRACIE'S POV:

Nothing has happened since the first day. The events have all gone smoothly, everything has been fine. I haven't told Taylor about me kissing Shawn, and I haven't really said anything to Shawn either. No one knows about the diagnosis, and I don't think they suspect anything. It's been a pretty good week, beisdes me starting the treatment process on Friday. I've been feeling pretty sick since then.

I glance over at the clock, it's 10:00 am. The last event for Denver was yesterday, so we're all leaving today, even me. Bart announced that we would go to the next city directly from here, which is the first time that's happened. No one knows where we're going yet. I hope it's somehwere nice. 

Shawn is sitting in his scrolling through twitter. Jacob and Mahogany are out getting breakfast togetherer. We don't say a word to eachother, I can literally feel the awkward. I've been meaning to say something to him, but I just can't find the words. I know he sees me kissing Taylor all the time, I know he knows I didn't mean it. Or at least I hope he does. 

Nothing has really happened between Taylor and I since that first night. We kiss and hang out and stuff, but nothing serious. There really just hasn't been time for any of that stuff. And then there's the treatment. I had been putting it out of my mind for all of last week, just pretending I wasn't sick, but now i can feel it. 

When I had my first appointment of Friday, they stuck me with a bunch of needles and put me through various machines and scanners. I felt like a test subject. The doctors say that all of what they're doing will prepare me for chemo, which starts at the end of the month. I can feel the sickness inside of me. 

It feels like an intruder in my body, I don't understand why I can feel it, but it's there. I've woken up every night since Friday struggling to catch my breath. I'm constantly coughing and when my heart rate gets up I start to wheeze. I didn't know it was going to be this bad. I didn't know it was going to weigh me down like this. How much longer can I hide it?

Shawn's POV:

Today we find out where we're going next. This city has certainly been the most interesting, well for me at least. I knew I was falling for Gracie before, but ever since she kissed me I fell hard. She's so beautiful, she's so perfect. But she's with Taylor, and I know she loves him, I can tell by the way she looks at him. I know he loves her too.

Nash, Matt, and the Jacks haven't really said anything to me since I told them about Gracie and I at the party. I've been debating with myself about talking to them about telling her that it was me that night. Maybe if she knew who I was, she would feel differently about her and Taylor. But if I do that to her it would just make her so confused and sad. Everything would just be a mess. 

Ugh. I'm just moving my thumbs across a blank screen, my phone died about ten minutes ago. I just don't want to have to talk to Gracie, nothing good would come out of that. Bart opens the door to our room. "Hey, Gracie I have some pretty good news for you."

Gracie looks up from her phone at Bart.

"The next tour stop is in Pheonix, Arizona." He smiles at her awed reaction and shuts the door. Pheonix should be nice this time of year. Gracie's smile fades almost as soon as he closes the door. I can literally feel the drama getting ready to unfold. This is going to be one hell of a trip.