I sat there in bed, pacing back and forth.
I can't take this.
I couldn't dare scream, since the boys and mum were downstairs, rehearsing.
Looking across my room, I saw my piano sit there. It's tempting..
I grabbed my notes, flipping through everything I've written in the past few weeks.
Ah.. Here it is..
I slowly got up from my bed, silently wincing in pain.
I took a deep breath, walking towards my piano quietly.
I placed my lyrics in front of me, and turned my keyboard on.
I turned the keyboard on full-volume.
This should get their attention...
I smirked, gently placing my hands on the first set of chords of the song.
I smashed my fingers on the keys hard, singing my all, loudly but proud.
I DON'T WANT MY FREEDOM!
I let my voice echo the hallways.
There's no reason for living!
I cried out, now playing softer.
With a broken heart....
I felt the rhythm of it all, hearing the guitars in the back of my mind.
This is a tricky situation...
I've only got myself to blame...
It's just a simple fact of life.
It could happen to anyone.
You win! You loose!
It's a chance you'll have to take with love.
Oh, yeah! I fell in love, but now you say it's over.. and I'm falling apart.....
It's a hard life, to be true lovers together.
To love and live forever in each others heart.
It's a long hard fight, to learn to care for each other.
To trust in one another, right from the start..
When you're in love.
Tears started falling from my eyes, all I could think of at this point was Timothy.
I try and mend the broken pieces..
I try to fight back the tears
They say it's just a state of mind
But it happens to everyone -
How it hurts - deep inside
When your love has cut you down to size
Life is tough - on your own
Now I'm waiting for something to fall from the skies
Waiting for love.
Yes it's a hard life
Two lovers together
To love and live forever in each others hearts
It's a long hard fight
To learn to care for each other
To trust in one another - right from the start
When you're in love -
I closed my eyes, pressing my hands harsh against the keys.
Yes it's a hard life
In a world that's filled with sorrow
There are people searching for love in every way -
It's a long hard fight -
But I'll always live for tomorrow
I'll look back on myself and say I did it for love
Yes I did it for love - for love -
I started singing loudly, images going through my mind.
oh I did it for love!
I continued to play the piano until the end of the song, as my hands gently pushed the keys now.
I take my hands off the keyboard, letting the sound ring.
There are no voices anymore.
I close my eyes, taking a deep breath. I let the tears slowly fall down.
Please.
Please, let me be free from this feeling. It's agonizing..
Without a knock, mum and the boys barged into my room.
"Chelsea? Are you alright?" Mum ran towards me, hugging me gently.
I didn't say anything. Why should I? There is nothing to say about what happened, they heard it all.
"Chelsea?" Mum looked at me, I stared into her eyes. Trying to let her see my pain, trying to let her know something went down.
But I can't do that to my mum. Mum wouldn't know a single way to make me happy, that would be a first.
"I-I wrote you guys a song for your next album.." I looked at the boys.
Each one of them had concern all on their faces.
I smiled weakly at them, faking, but showing that I was okay.
I nodded to them.
Freddie walked forward, "Well, darling.." He played with his hands, trying to find the words to speak.
"That was beautiful, Chelsea. Honestly, I could hear the emotion and everything." Freddie smiled at me, sympathetically.
I nodded, "That's how you write great music, I guess" I shrugged, letting out a soft laugh.
Freddie nodded, "That's exactly right" He smiled.
"I'm alright, mum.. I-I just got into the music, no worries.." I lied, trying to smile to show my mum I'm alright.
Mum looked at me for a moment, turning her head, studying me. I could tell she was trying to find that I was lying.
Mum sighed, "Well, it was very beautiful, Chelsea. I'm sure it'll be a meaningful hit" She smiled at me.
I nodded, looking down.
Meaningful..
Meaningful indeed.
