[The airport scene]
Jas' POV
In this short span of time, Aaron spilled the truth.
"Why are you saying this now?" My voice was still hard.
I don't exactly know why I was getting mad again. Was I angered by the way he handled things? Or because he thought facing his struggles alone was the best solution? Or was I mad because I couldn't help him in any way? Was I feeling sorry for him?
"I don't want you to feel horrible by yourself, because of me."
"Did you think saying this was gonna change anything?"
"No...Jas, that's not my intention, you know that."
"Why...do you have to leave?" I questioned, this time, my voice turned weak.
I could feel the tears forming in my eyes. The sudden rush of emotions stirred me with uncertainty. I wasn't sure what to feel at this point in time. Angry? Sad? Relieved that he isn't actually bad?
"I should start anew with Adam. We'll be happier. We'll finally set aside some time for ourselves. It's the best for us."
"One more question," I started again.
"Even though... you used me..."
I choked the harsh words out. The words that I never wanted to imagine.
"Hey, you could say that I used you, but even if I didn't," he interrupted.
"... You're still the girl I like, Jas."
What is this? A confession?
"Do you have any idea? You're a bright, adorable girl. You brought happiness to my world more than you think you did. I'd be blind not to fall for you." He continued.
So he confessed to me. But...what's with me?
Why am I not shaken up?
I'd be blushing by now if Baekhyun were to say the exact same words... but...I'm not feeling anything.
Everything is strangely different. My heart isn't racing.
Had I gotten over him already? So easily?
"I don't want you to misunderstand this, at least. Jas, you're a wonderful girl. Better than you imagined." He continued.
I couldn't find the right words to continue the conversation and I only stood rooted to the ground.
"I wish we could pretend that nothing happened and date like any normal couple would, but its too late to change. And even if we rewind time, I'd do the same for Adam... perhaps in this life... we're not meant to be." He chuckled and ended off with a sad smile.
I fiddled with my fingers, still trying to find the right words to say.
"When are you coming back then?"
"I don't know. We haven't thought about that."
"Then... can we still keep in touch?"
"O?"
"If you still... consider me as your... friend," I said.
I offered a handshake and put on a smile. He lit a sincere smile too and held onto the hand I raised.
"Friends." He answered in relief.
From the formal little handshake, he pulled me towards him and encircled me into a hug.
He hugged me and I'm still not feeling anything.
Rather than that, in this split second, I compared it to Baekhyun's embrace, which was undoubtedly a million times better, warmer and exhilarating.
It struck me then.
Maybe I wasn't heartbroken in the first place. It had been just a sour taste of betrayal. Maybe I didn't cry because of our tainted love. Maybe I cried because I felt lonely and devastated. Maybe.. I didn't love him in the first place. Maybe I only liked him because he was the first guy who treated me so warm and tender.
Maybe I was mistaken all along.
"This is a goodbye for now, friend." His voice soft and deep.
"Take care and be well, be happy," I genuinely wished him for the best.
"...and thank you for everything, Aaron."
And that was the last note.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
<< Song of the Day: I don't love you / Urban Zakapa >>
~ What should I say? Where do I start? I'm only hanging my head. You're looking at me in this awkward silence. I don't love you, I'm sure you already know. Even when I see you shedding tears, my heart doesn't ache anymore. ~
EXO SARANGHAJA 💖🌞🌞
- A
YOU ARE READING
Because It's Love | EXO CHEN
Fanfiction[COMPLETED. 1ST FANFIC] BEST RANKED #1 - kimjongdae ~I thought it was going to be another hard fall but it didn't happen. Somehow, he caught me in his arms. Am I dreaming? My arms instinctively hooked around his neck, but a second later, every part...
