Forbidden Love

Chapter Three-I Wish That Was Me

Beep. Beep. Beep. I groggily swipe the arrow on my iPhone, annoyed that I have to wake up. I need my sleep!

As a get ready for the day, I can't help but wonder what people think of me. I am always known as the bad boy. I don't know if that's a good thing or not, because I could either be considered scary or sexy.

Then there's Liam Payne. He is sweet, and caring. I heard someone talking about how he is the schools angel, and how even the people at school who are complete douche bags, are extremely nice to him. I guess that people like that, just rub off on you. But at the same time, he is sexy. Unbelievably sexy. He invited me to sit at his table during lunch period yesterday at school, and I kept having dirty thoughts. It was awful! I know that it would be to good to be true, but I can't help but wonder if Liam Payne is interested in guys. Like me.

Zayn- stop it.

And liam is smart. I know that Liam gets straight A's, but don't get me wrong. I am not that bad in school, the lowest I've gotten in a couple of years is a C. It's the only thing I'm good at so I have to try...

And Liam said I have a beautiful voice?

Yeah right! I'm awful. I sound like a retarded elephant. I'm awful.

Now it's time for school. And our performance.

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"Okay, we are going to go in one by one with the groups and you will perform the song. Hopefully all of you know your parts. First up is Karen Smiths group. The rest of you can go to the hall, and wait." Simon tells us, so we all file out into the hallway, me following Liam.

"i really need some water," I say, "Where's the machine?"

Liam speaks up, "Come on, I'll show you." I follow him down to the front lobby, and then he leads me down a vacant hallway, which eventually leads to a vending machine.

I reach into my pockets, to find that I have no money. I let out a moan. Great! Note the sarcasm.

"Forgot money?" Liam laughed.

I nodded, while he pulled out one dollar and found fifty cents. "Here." he said, and reached out to hand it to me. When we touched hands, it felt as if a jolt ran up my arm, and I was starting to feel butterflies in my stomach. I have never had that feeling; I've only felt pure lust with men. I can already tell Liam's special. I can imagine his hand holding mine while walking on a beach, or grabbing locks of my hair when we're kissing. I could imagine simply, us.

"Zayn, we haven't really gotten to know eachother that well." Liam told me, as we walked back to the hallway where the performances were being held. "Niall, Harry, Louis, and I are hanging out later today, and sleeping at Harry's house. I was wondering if you wanted to come over? I mean... Only if you want to." If I want too? This kid thinks I don't want to hang out with him?! Hell yes!

"Yes I want too, we already exchanged numbers so just text me the details." I say, right when we managed to get back to the other lads.

"Okay, so Karen's group already came off, and Josh's went on. I think were next..." Niall spoke. I glanced over to my right at Louis, and he gave me a weak smile. We're both nervous.

"I'm sure everything is going to be completely fine, you guys. Just be cool." Harry tells us, and we nod. Josh comes out, and he tells us the words I do not want to hear.

"You're next."

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We are all standing there outside, and it's pretty hot out. To my right is Niall, then Harry, then to my left is Liam then Louis.

"Okay, boys. Go ahead." The music starts to play, and Liam steps forward to sing his verse.

I thought I saw a girl brought to life

She was warm, she came around, she was dignified

Showed me what it was to cry

You couldn't be that girl i adored

You don't seem to know or seem to care what your heart is for

But I don't know her anymore

Oh, how I wish that was me he was singing about. His voice is amazing, its like I'm hypnotized. Now Harry steps in.

There's nothing left, I used to cry

My conversation has run dry

That's what's going on

Nothing's fine I'm torn

Now the chorus.

I'm all out of faith

This is how I feel

I'm cold and I am shamed

Lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed

Into something real

I'm wide awake and I can see

The perfect sky is torn

You're a little late

I'm already torn (I'm already torn)

There's nothing left, I used to cry

Inspiration has run dry

That's what's going on

Nothing's fine

I'm torn

Torn

I'm torn

Nothing's fine

I'm torn

I'm all out of faith

This is how I feel

I'm cold and I am shamed

Lying broken on the floor

Illusion never changed

Into something real

I'm wide awake and I can see

The perfect sky is torn

You're a little late

I'm already torn

I'm already

I'm already torn

Torn

Oooh

Torn

We all smile, we did great. Our voices were perfectly harmonized together, and it went better than expected.

Now I must wait until Liam texts me after school. Then I can hang out with my secret crush.