(You have been warned)
Where are you now my friend? Why are you so lonely? Can you notice people asking if you are alright?
Don't lie to them
Don't tell them you're fine
Tell them the truth
We are the same but I had it longer than anyone can imagine
For as long as I remember, I was depressed. Once in a while, I forget I'm depressed and genuinely smile
But more often than not, I fake it
Behind the sunny personality, a personality that attracted people, lies a broken person
I believe I only confided it to the people I'm very close with
But more often than not, they just dismiss it and tell me there is a reason to be happy?
I asked myself something
"I'm suffering from depression for 4 years straight, never telling anyone. But what is my reason to be happy?"
My reason?
Your reason?
Their reason?
Whose reason really matters?
And please, for goodness sake, don't self harm. I already stopped but I'm still feeling down. Lonely too
Self-harm is stupid too
Actually... I have to admit I felt pain first. Gradually, I enjoyed it. I forgot the pain I had
My parents found out and threatened to put me in the asylum
Really?
Are they serious?
How many restless night I spent, wondering if my life is worth living
But I ask you one thing
Do you want to see your happy ending?
Do you?
And I don't think I will have a happy ending
Not everyone does though
And I might be included
But still, if I die
I will still continue smiling
Because I realized my life is worth living even if others scoff at me
For me, making others happy is enough to make me happy
Go find yours
Follow your heart
