What is Love? (Ashton Irwin || AU)

Ashton || 4

I'm so in over my head with this girl. She's absolutely perfect in every way. I was really hoping for something more with her, but she said it herself that we are friends. Being friend zoned sucks ass. Then I basically threw it back in her face that we were just friends and she seemed hurt. After the words left my mouth I felt bad, but I couldn't help it. It's better for us to start off as friends though. I just hope it doesn't make things awkward in the future.

After we got out of the pool, we went and got towels to dry off with. Then we lied out on the blanket and talked until it was dark enough to see the stars. We stared at the stars for what seemed like forever until I looked over at Sammy, I only call her Samantha to her face because I know it irritates her, and saw that she was sleeping. I felt like a creeper for staring at her, but I couldn't stop. She looked so peaceful and perfect. I moved a piece of her hair that had fallen onto her face and caressed her cheek with my thumb. She started to stir in her sleep and I quickly pulled my hand away. Thankfully she didn't wake up. I turned on to my side so I was facing her and continued taking in every feature of hers until I fell asleep myself.

I woke up this morning with a weight on my chest and the sound of steady breathing next to me. I slowly open my eyes and look down to find Sammy still asleep with her head on my chest and her arm draped over my waist. And I thought I slept a lot. She fell asleep before me and is still sleeping. I suddenly felt a great urge to urinate, but I don't want to get up and wake her. I slowly and carefully pick her arm up off of me and roll her gently off of me. She doesn't wake up, which is good, and I quietly get up and walk to the back door of her grandma's house. When I go to open it the handle doesn't turn. "Fuck." I mutter under my breath. Now I have to walk to my house because I'm not going to wake everyone else up just to pee. I sprint to my house and open the door as quietly yet quickly as possible and run to the bathroom. I do my business and then sprint back to Sammy. When I arrive I don't see her laying on the blanket anymore. I look around and then find her leaning up against the fence furthest from the house looking at the ocean. I slowly walk over to her and she doesn't notice my presence until I'm standing right next to her. "Did you sleep well?"

"Yeah." She says a little coldly. When I look at her I see that her cheeks are tear stained and her eyes are red.

"What's wrong?" I ask becoming very worried. I left for two minutes. What could've happened while I was gone?

"Nothing that matters to you." She snaps.

"Anything that hurts you or makes you lose your smile matters to me. Now tell me what's wrong." I demand.

"I woke up and you were gone. I had fun last night and thought we were getting along great and then I wake up to nothing." She says, her voice shaky.

"I'm sorry. I had to pee really bad. I didn't want to wake anyone in your house up just to let me in so I ran to my house. Actually I sprinted, but I didn't think you'd wake up. I'm sorry."

"It hurts to wake up alone." She says. I hug her into my arms and hold her there, not wanting to let her go. The way she says that makes me think that she knows the feeling all too well, but I decide against asking her about it. I don't want to see her cry any longer.

"Do you want to go eat?" I ask her, changing the subject. She nods her head and then I grab her hand and walk with her towards the house. She tries the handle like I did and finds the same problem. She bangs on the door and after a minute her grandma opens the door.

"Sorry. I forgot you guys were outside." Her grandma says after she opens the door. As soon as we step inside I smell bacon. "I already made your plates." If this is a every morning thing then I'm coming over here for breakfast.

"Thank you." Sammy and I say in unison. We then sit down and start eating.

"Are you sure you're ok? You still seem upset." I say quietly. I don't know if she wants anyone to hear.