Why can't I be with him?

Why now?

I am a couple of months along now, and so far after that one day of just relaxation many more followed.

Tyrece's mom has been schooling me at home because even though I am only a couple months pregnant everything has gotten worse. It got so bad I threw up in the middle of class. Also when I went to school people would bully me and call me names. I couldn't stand the stress. Also that Cindy Crawford had found out about my dad shooting Tyrece. She made it her mission to make me feel guilty every single day.

Everyday she would walk up to me when he was not around and say things like:

"You are gonna get him killed one day."

"You should've kept your legs closed and it wouldn't have happened."

"He must have a death wish if he is still with you."

And so much more...

I couldn't take any of that stress well so one day I flipped out and punched her right in the nose. Everyone turned and gave me nasty looks. Someone helped her up, and everyone whispered things. After that no one could tolerate me anymore.

Soon after groups of girls would get together and trap me behind the school and start to push me around. They would say things like they were doing Tyrece a favor by getting rid of my "mistake". Tyrece would find out and get really angry. He started to turn his back on everyone in the school.

That's when his mom got involved and homeschooled me.

We had just finished the last lesson when Tyrece and his brothers had just walked in.

"How was your day, Evie?" He said giving me a kiss on the forehead.

"It was the same as every other day." I said the boredom evident in my voice.

" I thought you like doing school here," he said sitting down and pulling me into his side.

" Only because I am away from those girls that want to beat the shit out of me."

"Language!" Tyrece's mom yells form the kitchen.

"Sorry."

"look, if you hate it that much come back and this time I wont leave your side...ever."

"No, I'll just get over it."

After that talk it was time for dinner and we had pork with mashed potatoes. Obviously his mom heard our conversation because she didn't make me eat my vegetable and kept on shooting worried looks my way. I hate worrying her, over the course of time I have been hear she has basically become my mom and I noticeably worry her. First, it was just with my pregnancy symptoms, but now it's with school too. I am started to think about leaving and finding my own place. I saw a cheap place down they road. I just have to get a job.

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Today I am going to look for a job.

Tyrece was worried about me walking alone , but I know it is really because he doesn't want me to get a job.

" You don't have to get a job, Evie. If you want to move out that bad I can get one."

"No, it has to be me because...I want to move out by myself."

" What?! Are you crazy? I was more okay when I thought I was going with you, but you are completely insane if you think you are moving out without me."

"Tyrece-"

" Don't Tyrece me it isn't happening, Evie. That's it." when he is done he grabs my hand and pulls me to his side.

I know he is just worried, but I still feel angry that he is so negative about me moving out by myself. He doesn't see it how I see it. Those girls want to hurt me because we are together. If I move out, then they will think we aren't together and leave me alone. It benefits him to because then my parents will probably react the same way and leave him. We both will benefit, but he just has to be possessive all the time.

Once I am done ranting about everything in my head, I start to look around and notice how everyone is staring at us.

" Hey little lady, this negro bothering you?" A white man that looked to be in his twenties asks me.

I look at Tyrece to see him angry at the man's choice of words. I am too quite frankly.

" No, this negro is not bothering me." I said in a harsh tone emphasizing the word negro.

I give the man a dirty look to which he returns and then I walk Tyrece in a different direction. I know if he gets made the man won't just give us a dirty face. Why now? Why something like this have to happen right now? I cant stand people anymore.

We head straight home after that, I try to make conversation with Tyrece, but he doesn't respond to me.

That night we eat dinner and go to bed. Before I fall asleep Tyrece whispers something in my ear.

"I love you." After that he gives me a little kiss on the cheek and cuddles me from behind.

I fell asleep with a smile on my face. I was too tired to say it back. I'll tell him in the morning. This baby makes me way too tired.

Hey Lovelies!

Haven't been on in a while. There was a snow storm yesterday and I couldn't update because it messed up my wifi. I hope this chapter makes up for lost time. This is my first time updating on a laptop so forgive if the line to divide days takes up a whole spaces for whoever is reading off a phone. I hope you can forgive me for the long waits I put all of you through, and hopefully I make them worth it!