Why can't I be with him?

The Talk

When Tyrece had finally settled down, and put me down, I told him that we needed to talk. Ella may have changed my mind about not being with Tyrece, but she didn't change how I still felt weak in comparison. It didn't feel equal, and I ignored that because I liked him and want him to be happy.

"What did you want to talk about, baby?" Tyrece said so low I could barely hear him.

He must think that I was gonna break up with him. I honestly if I hadn't talked with Ella, I probably would have made that mistake.

"I am not breaking up with you or anything like that, if that is what you're thinking," At this part he pulled me into a hug.

"Oh thank god!" He said breathing out a breath of relief.

"but I want somethings to change between us-"

He looked confused, worried and sad all at once.

"What do you mean by that-"

"Just let me finish, Tyrece!" I say starting to get angry. "I am trying to tell you something... I am tried of my wants being pushed to the side, especially because I'm pregnant." I said not looking in his eyes. "I know that you are just worried bout me , and I get it, but I want you to actually listen to me-"

"I do listen to you, Evie. Why the hell do you think I get so worried!"

"What do you mean by-" He yells again before I can finish.

"You sound like you are trying to leave me! You want to get a job alone, and you want to move out without me! It seems like you are trying to leave me right after you got pregnant!"

At that I became furious. It sounds like he is trying to say I'm up to something.

"Are you trying to accuse me of something!? I really can't believe you! It sounds like I was just here to get knocked by you or something!"

"Well, the way you have been acting after sure isn't telling any other story." He said lower this time.

"I can't believe this. I come back here just asking for a little more respect for my decisions on things. You manage to make it about you and how I must be using you because I want to be more independent, and it is not even about being independent it is about both of us and this baby being safe. You act like you can't see the glares, and don't hear the nasty things people say to you , to me, about this kid...I am just trying to make it so we have a little more space and caution. One day it won't be just stares and comments." I said this with big fat tears rolling down my face.

"I know about all of that, Evie. You know what though?" He said slowly wrapping his arms around me.

"What?"

"I love you and this baby too much to care. I won't let anything happen to either of you, I swear on everything...and I'll try."

"You'll try what?" I said looking up at him.

"I'll try to respect your decisions more, and stop letting what I think what is best come in the way. I should have listened to you about working, and take your feelings. I know what I do, baby, I just think it is the right thing because it is me protecting you stepping in the way of all the bullets headed you way. I just forget..."

"Forget what?" I say into his chest. He was trying to hold it in though.

"Forget that you can handle some yourself. I just have been in this type of world for so long, and I don't want you to see it. How bad it is, but you have to experience these things too."

"Yes, I do. If I don't... I'll just get hurt even worse than if I would not already feeling this." He needed his head and put his chin on top of my head.

We stood there for a little while. Right up until his family walked into the room. When his mother saw me I was confused. Everyone else looked happy and relieved, but she seemed very angry.

Then she walked up to me and did it.

She slapped me.

Very hard.

So hard my head whipped to the side, and I got whiplash.

"Where have you been?" she said with such malice I stepped back.

"Where have you been?!" She yelled, and I heard it.

She was worried.

* Flashback *

"That's what good mothers do, they worry."

* End of Flashback *

I looked closely at her and saw the tears in her beautiful eyes.

I walked up to her and just hugged her as tight as I could. She started sobbing hard and loud. I just kept on holding her. She wrapped her arms around me and started calming down.

"I am so sorry." I said into her shoulder.

"You better be. You left me here with these idiots all by myself. Especially Tyrece, always walking around and blubbering about you and how you are the love of his life. I wanted to kick him in the face."

We both laughed at that. She started walking me into the kitchen.

"Do you want something to eat-"

"Oh god yes!" I said with such desperation.

"Oh okay." She said a little taken back. " Is that how you sounded when you got pregnant?"

"Ew! Mom, please, do not be disgusting. She literally just got back and you are already making jokes." Tyrece says from behind us.

" Oh! You hush!" She glared at him playfully.

We all headed into the kitchen and helped make dinner. The whole time everyone was laughing and having a good time. I wonder how I could have ever wanted to be away from this.

When we sat down, we had such a good time we skipped saying grace and just dug right in. Well... I mean... I skipped grace. Let us all remember I am still pregnant and hungry. Especially when this woman is cooking.

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Dinner is done. We all helped clean and then the rest of the family went to have a night on the town. Tyrece and I stayed home though. We decided it has been awhile since we fooled around, you know?  When we were done we went to sleep in each others arms.

Tonight was beautiful, and filled with all these beautiful people. They have done nothing but care for me. I'll make it up to them.

I swear it....

But how?...

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Hello lovelies!

    Long time no see! From me...Long time no see from me. Ummm... I am sorry. I hope this extended chapter helps. All the OGs know I don't write chapters this long. I just wanted you guys to know that I love you. I love all your support even though I have been absent. Also we reached 9k (and a little more because I'm really lazy and I'm not gonna go through all that work to put the exact number you should know this by now) reads. You know what that means!!!!!!!!! I will try to post another thank you update. It does take a long time because there are a lot of you. Especially now! Sooooooo love you all I am feeling pretty awkward today, honestly.

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