mistake [luke hemmings]

d r u g s

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I wake up sore and aching all over. The room has changed and I am laying on something soft.

"Phoenix," I hear a soft voice say, more welcoming than the men that kidnapped me. I turn my head and see Luke sitting by the far wall of the room, watching me with intent and sad eyes. I gasp, "Luke!" I try to sit up and run to him. All I want to do is throw my arms around his neck and kiss him with everything I've ever had, but I can barely move. I feel dirty and I can smell the men's disgusting breath on my clothes.

Luke jumps up and runs to me, holding my shoulders so I don't try to get up again. "Don't," he says quietly. I don't realize that I'm crying until then. Seeing Luke made me so happy, but something inside me broke when I saw his terrified eyes looking at me with guilt. "How did you find me?" I whisper, only because my voice will not go any higher. "Why were you gone for so long?" He puts his down, and whispers, "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have left."

I don't know what to say, so I stay quiet.

He sighs and sits on the bed, taking my hand in his. "I didn't go to buy water. I'm sorry, it was a stupid lie, but you fell for it and I couldn't just not take the opportunity." He breathes in and out, shaking his head. "Someone I know, Ronnie, he had some drugs. I was supposed to meet up with him, and I just..."

"Drugs?" I whisper. "You were going to buy drugs?"

Luke sighs and puts his head down, defeated. "It wasn't for me. It was for a friend, he's sick. I could've gone out and bought the drugs myself, but they were pretty expensive. Ronnie had some and he said he'd give them to me for free."

I nod, understanding, and still a little hurt. "Please, Luke. Don't do that again."

He chokes back a sob. "I'm so sorry. The things that they did to you, it wasn't worth it. I'm so sorry." He puts his forehead against mine and cries. I don't know what to do to stop him, because I'm crying just as much.

"I forgive you, Luke. You're my best friend. I can't lose you," I tell him, but even as I say it, I know there is something he isn't telling me. Something else happened, I know it. Why else would he have taken so long to come back before I got kidnapped?

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don't hate me for making Luke seem like a drug hoarder haha