mistake [luke hemmings]

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I was woken by the sunlight seeping through my window, shining brightly over my covers. I moaned as I pulled the covers off, not wanting to get out if bed, yet knowing that I wouldn't be able to fall back asleep. I turned my head towards the alarm clock in my desk, sitting right next to the picture of Luke and me. I inhaled slowly as I glanced over the picture and tried my best to keep my eyes off it.

4:17.

I haven't even slept for six hours. I checked my phone, which said it was Tuesday. One day after yesterday.

Holy mother of Christ.

I overslept!! (It's funny how one second, you think one thing, and the next, you think the opposite...)

I stood up quickly and raced to the shower. I poured liquid soap all over my body, scrubbed, rinsed. I dumped shampoo onto my hand and pushed it into my hair, rinsed. I squeezed an overload of conditioner on my palm, combed it through my hair, made sure every strand of hair was knot-free, rinsed.

I turned off the water and grabbed my towel, drying myself off and tying it under my armpits. Running out of the bathroom and grabbing clean clothes from my drawer, I raced to get dressed and rushed out the door in a solid four and a half minutes.

I tried catching my breath as I walked the few blocks it took to get from my house to Luke's, but it didn't work. With every step I took, all it could think of was "One more step closer to seeing his face. Just one step closer."

I breathed in and out, realizing that I had no idea what I was going to say. I stopped walking and looked back towards my house, wondering if I should go back and think of a plan. Or maybe I can just go back to sleep and forget about life.

I like the sound of that.

I shake my head, realizing how stupid I sound, and continue walking towards Luke's house. I finally get there in what feels like days, months, years. I sigh before I hold my finger to the doorbell and press.

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four more chapters to go :)