Midnight Thoughts About Myself And Other Things

The Mask I Wear Everyday

The mask I wear everyday is the same. Same old boring. A fake smile, a shine in my eyes, and not looking so sad all the time. But when I take that mask off... Well, you see... I become a very different person. The fake smile is now replaced with a frown, the shine in my eyes are now dull, and looking sad all the time comes back. I only take my mask off on accessions. When I'm alone at home or at a place where nobody would notice. Because that's what everyone does nowadays. Ignore me. They don't care how I feel or how I look to them. That won't listen to me when I talk. They won't listen to me when I don't talk. Everyone ignores. I don't fit in with anybody here. Its not that I like to share ideas or be listened to. Its rather that I don't want to be ignored. I would rather not speak then be ignored. I think everyone would. Some people wouldn't. Somebody once told me that speaking is the most important thing you will ever need in your life. You don't need friends, grades, or be listened to. You just need to be speaking. Then everyone will listen to you. I'm pretty sure they're wrong. Why? You may ask me, because speaking gets us to places we don't want to be. Speaking gets us in fights. If we don't speak nothing will happen. So this mask I wear is fake. I don't look happy all the time. I rarely. The last time I wore a real smile was when I was maybe 6. Back then I didn't know what any of this meant.