I prefer rain falls over sunshine. maybe that explains why I choose you over anyone else
At this point, my story is basically current. So heres the lesson i learned.
Sometimes love is right in front of your eyes. You cant see it sometimes, thats how close it is.
If you can notice this, take advantage.
Communicate, i beg you. Tell them how you feel. I know im the biggest hypocrite for this, because im still sleeping with him, and he still doesnt know that i love him.
That i think he is my soul mate, i accept we probably wont ever be together again. But i can dream about it, and hold onto little hope there is.
Dont give up. I thought sleeping with him was one of my worst decisions. it was the best decision i have ever made in my whole life.
I 100% mean this, he is my soul mate. I realized this, and im proud of myself for loving him in a way i could never for another boy. He may leave me forever, but as long as he is satisfied with his life im happy for him. I root for him constantly, even when he tells me about girls he gets. when he is happy, i am happy.
Most importantly;
follow your gut
your gut is always right. I used to tell El that Brody is the one. I brushed it off, he was in fact my first love, so i thought it was 15 year old me being a 15 year old.
But i was so right.
I wouldnt have my life any different. i made it through SO much, and came full circle. I still have my love, and i still can love him. I can love him in our own way. even if its in secret and in the back seat of his truck.
Any comments, please leave them. this is the most raw piece i have. I want to share because so many go through the same, although no ones path is the same.
Its not widely accepted that i sleep with my ex boyfriend for no reason. but there is a reason, no one knows it but me, and maybe him. don't listen to the haters, do YOUR thing. YOU are the only one who knows whats best for you.
I welcome advice as well.
