What Matters Most

chapter six

Sang~

I've known Kevin a long time. He saved me from my horrible step mother and step sister. He never treated me as I was a child even though I was a few years younger than him. He's been the one constant in my life when everyone else left.

Listening to him speak to Raven about me like that broke my heart. I didn't know he felt that way. I knew he loved me but I always thought it was as a little sister or something. And for him to think i would choose someone over him was ludicrous.

He had Mindy and I thought he was happy. I knew they were having problems for a while but they tried not to show it in front of me. Mindy had seemed off for a while now, working late, not being affectionate. I see now that it was because she was cheating on him. I wonder for how long.

The reason I dated Derrick was because Mindy wanted me to. She kept insisting that I needed to put myself out there and start being normal and doing what normal girls did. She said girls my age dated and I wanted so bad to be normal.

So I dated Derrick. It was good at first but then he always gave me a guilty smile after we would kiss. I should have seen the signs. Derrick was a good guy and I'm sure we would be friends now if it wasn't for Mindy getting her claws into him.

I decided to stay quiet when I came back from the kitchen. Raven knew I had heard the conversation. He probably saw how I felt about it too. Kevin was my life line, my reason for living because without him, I'd never be the girl I am today. I think the first time he held me and told me a funny story about his brothers to make me smile was when I started seeing him as more than family and someone I could fall in love with.

I was having a horrible day, it was the first day of classes and I found out how cruel college kids could be. I had a run in with a girl named Jade who not so kindly informed me, that if I ever spoke to a guy named Rocky again there would be hell to pay. Then she took her coffee and threw it all over the front of my clothes.

I needed someone to talk to, I needed advice so I went home in search of Mindy who wasn't there. She had left to go to a business meeting. Kevin took one look at me and held out his arms. I ran into his arms, soaked his shirt and told him about everything. He was livid but instead of going to find Jade and tell her off, he told me a story and brought a smile to my face. He held me close to him while we watched movies and put me into bed when I fell asleep kissing my hair and wished me sweet dreams.

After that I fell for him a little more each day until I couldn't bare to be in the same room with him and Mindy together. I spent more time with him and less with Mindy. I kept my feelings to myself because why would Kevin want me? I was a nobody. I wasn't that pretty, not like Mindy and I had nothing to offer because I was still in school. He'd never want someone like me.

Raven kept giving me reassuring smiles. I don't know how it's possible for all these hot guys to be living together but here they are, all under the same roof looking hot and I'm sure breaking all kinds of hearts. I didn't understand why Kevin didn't want me to meet them until I heard him say he was afraid I wouldn't choose him. The silly man. Didn't he know it wasn't a contest when it came to him. I'd follow him anywhere.

When all the guys showed up for Dinner, I became a little overwhelmed so I excused myself after dinner to go lay down in the room they said I could have. I needed time to think and to come up with a plan to convince Kevin that I wasn't going anywhere, not without him.

Axel~

When I got home from an assignment, most of the guys were already there and waiting to have dinner. No one was really speaking and I think it had something to do with the somber mood Sang was in. Apparently her moods now affected the two teams.