Uta x Reader : Forgive Me

12. Unveiled

"Who's that..?"
"An.. old friend of mine.. technically."

"Oyo? Are we still not friends?"

"You're stabbed in the back but you feel no pain"

I'm not sure how to feel really, but how do you react in a situation like this? In front of the guy who literally obliterated my uterus before I was dragged to Hell? I'm filled with nothing but questions to ask; What was the point of that? Why..? Does he work for them, or help them in a way? Why me out of thousands of other ghouls?
Who's the real him- the one before I was taken away, or the one that scarred me?

"Push the heaviest doors that you can't open

Yhea they tied me up and my body lies still, again"

I'm still frozen in place, not sure to either attack or question him.. or do both at the same time. Just looking at him, I get goosebumps as I remember Jason and being chained to that chair for what seemed like eternity. Though I have completely accepted who I am, and accepted long ago that I will never regain the memories of a past me..

"You're as bright as the sun and as bold as the moon"

A light chuckle and a door opening pull me out my head thinking of the millions of questions Im trying to think to ask.

"Come in. It's been a while, hasn't it?" I thank Adrian before heading to the place I thought I'd never step foot in again. Upon walking in, nothing but the designs of his work have changed compared to the last time I was here. He sits behind his work desk, leaning forward resting his head on his palm and looks in my eyes as if he already knows how confused I am. He smirks,
"So, how was it? You definitely feel and look awakened finally"
"Are you shitting me right now Uta. That's the first thing you're asking me? Not if I'm okay in any way, shape, or form?"
"I mean, you don't look-"
"That's not what I meant, physically. I was fucked up, Uta. Torn from the inside by you first before I was sent straight to Hell.. which you didn't even hesitate to send me to! What was even the point of that?! Kaneki nor I didn't deserve to be torn apart and now we're the monsters who rip people to shreds!"
"_____. Look, I-"
"Ok well not me deliberately but I gotta eat, and I dont know about Kaneki since it looks like he lost it a little bit more, I hope he's alright... but that's not the point! Out of all these questions I have, just tell me Uta.. tell me..." I look at him through blurry eyes. I'm tired of not remembering, I'm tired of not knowing why, I'm just tired of not knowing a single damn thing..
"Why did you do this to me? Dammit Uta, of all people you had to get affiliated with you just HAD to find one with no fucking memory and vulnerable in the ghoul world?"

"I dont know when you'll break, but its going to be soon."

"I'm sorry, _____. That's all I can say to you. One day you'll understand, but not now. You'll end up thanking me later, if things end up as planned."
Thank him?! For what, being 'awakened' and not being able to have children? I mean I havent even thought about children.. but its not like i have an option now! Wait, planned?
"Planned? You PLANNED ALL THIS?!"
"I had to,"
He gets up from his desk and sits on the edge of it, folding his arms in front of him.
"I don't apologize often, not at all actually. So I mean it when I say it __Y/N__. I'm sorry for what happened after, but I wouldnt have changed a single thing. I absolutely had to. Depending how things go, I'll tell you. But you might find out before then-"
A sudden buzz and light pop out of his pants pocket. "Oh, Adrian wanted me to give this to you as well. Take it."
He hands me a phone, with a text notification from Adrian himself. Opening it, I realize its been used from the amount of apps on it.

"If my will caves in, I'll be in the same boat as you."

"Who's was this? Yours? I dont want your phone."
"It's yours. Adrian had it, and apparently it belonged to you from the past. He couldn't find your most recent phone from your old place though."
Whoa wwoa woa wait a quick sunday split second here, "Wait from the past past, like from the time I don't remember?"
"That's what he said, but ju-"
The door opens and a customer of his comes in asking if his order was ready as promised. I snatch the phone from his hand and walk out without saying anything else.

{A/N: Is anyone still actively reading this? Im losing hope in continuing it ;_;}