Tongue-Biter

My name is...

Uh, hi. I'm, uh, my- my name is Connor. I'm an eight grader. I, uh, just turned- I just turned 14, a few weeks ago actually. I live with my dad, his fiance, and my four siblings. My, uh, mom lives in another state. I'm not very close with her. I'm the second kid. My older sister is named Ashley. My two younger brothers are Hayden and Kodi. And my little sister is Sophie. I have a cat. He lives outside because he isn't allowed in the house. His name is Yogie and he's my old cat, Lily's, kitten. He doesn't like people, but he allows me to pet him sometimes. I still love him despite that he doesn't like me. Sorry, I'm, uh, ranting aren't I? I'm sorry. I, uh, nevermind. You'll learn more about me throughout this.
*Ashley shakes me awake* "Get up, Connie!" She demanded. I guess I should explain Connie. I'm, well, a- I'm a transguy. I'm biologically female. I have no penis or abs. What I have is a chest that's too big and female genitalia. Only my close friends call me Connor and use boy pronouns. For others, it's Connie and girl pronouns. After I came out to my dad and his fiance just over a year ago, I cried in the bathroom for hours. They got mad. We're okay now, but I'm still Connie and I'm still female, at least to them. Let's move along.
I got up and got dressed. I put on my everyday outfit, which was black skinny jeans, my chest binder, my Hogwarts shirt, and my Converses. I ate a granola bar and went back in my room. I got on my phone and listened to some music. My playlist consisted of "emo" bands and songs from musicals like "Hamilton" and "Dear Evan Hansen". That's the one thing I didn't care about. I liked my music and that's all that I was concerned about as far as that matter.
I'm getting off track. I'm sorry. Anyway, the time to leave the house came and I turned my light off and shut my door. The most painful part of my day was leaving my room. It was bad enough having school. But, one good thing about school is seeing my friends. Specifically my best friend Jace. I also have Jake, Jonathan, and Clementine. I've known Clem and Jace longest. We've been friends for almost 2 years. Hell, I'd be dead right now if we had never met. I was always the first one at school. We sat in the gym bleachers in the morning, which were separated into the three grades. Jace always came not long after I arrived. We sat on the wall and just talked. About literally anything. Just because we could.
" Lafayette!" Jace cheered, putting his hand up for a high-five. " Hamilton!" I laughed as I high-fived him. We sat in our spot and did my favorite thing. We just talked. About nothing in particular. Just talked. " So, I totally wasn't crying my eyes out last night while listening to ' You Will Be Found' on repeat for almost an hour." I started. Jace laughed. " It is a really emotional song." I agreed. " I like ' Sincerely, Me'." Jace said. I laughed. " Life without you has been hard!" I sang. " Hard?" He sang along. " Has been bad!" " Bad?" " Has been rough!" "KINKY!" We both yelled in unison. Then we did my other favorite thing. We just laughed. Jake walked in the gym and saw us laughing. " Yo, peeps. What's so funny?" He asked. " Kinky." Jace responded casually. Jake dabbed and yelled " KINKY!" so loud that everyone stared at him. The three of us laughed. " How's your dad?" I asked Jake. He nodded. " Good." " That's good. Hope he feels better." Jace added. Clem and Jonathan came in. " Hey, guys!" Clem greeted. Jonathan said hi too. " Hello, brethren!" Jace chirped. We all laughed. For a moment, I actually felt like today was going to be a good day. Then my fantasy drifted away just like when you fall asleep. Slowly, then all at once. Then it's just blank.
( To be continued)