Tongue-Biter

Rough Days

Where to begin.

I hate Winter Guard.

It's so frustrating.

I love the people.

I love the atmosphere.

I love my friends.

I love the coaches.

But I hate everything else.

Drama club meeting is next week.
On Wednesday.
I have Art Club.
And most likely Winter Guard practice.

Winter Guard takes up too much of my life.

Drama and Art were the #1 things I wanted so badly to do this year.

But Winter Guard is interfering with both of them!

I want to quit.

But my friends will hate me.
Not my small group.
But my older friends who are on the team.
The coaches will hate me.
Plus I'd feel really bad for quitting before our Christmas parade and all that.
We already lost 2 members.
And we may lose another.

I don't want to be a problem.

Yesterday in practice, I had a complete breakdown and started crying.
ME!
CRYING!
My friends have not ever seen me cry before yesterday.
Some of our older friends ( idk what to name them???) Sandra and Jade, comforted me and hugged me and everyone else, who noticed, was worried.
Both coaches asked me if I was okay.
I guess my eyes must have been red, huh?
I told everyone the same thing.
" I'm fine."
" I'm okay."

I have another older friends in Art Club.
Her name is ( idkkkk ) Anne.
She talked to me about therapy and where I can find help and gave me some advice.
Another friend, the same age as me, talked to me today and I felt better.

Jonathan talked to me too.
It was comforting.

But I hate having my friends worry about me.
Especially when I don't have a valid reason to be upset.

I'm going to have another update probably soon.
I can't explain it all in just one post.
And, surprise, I had practice today.
So I'm really tired and I need to do my stretches.
I love you, turtles!
I'll update soon!