Wow. Just wow.
He has known the whole fucking time.
I am laughing about it.
I don't really know why I'm laughing.
I think I'm relieved that he doesn't hate me.
He has known since February.
Five months.
He always knew.
I know. Our friends can't keep secrets.
When he told me he knew, not gonna lie, I felt hurt.
But at the same time I wasn't upset. I know who told him. I'm not mad. I was just surprised.
What shocked me most is that he was so calm about everything.
He wasn't mad or weirded out.
He was chill. He's just like " yeah I know."
I feel weird.
I can't really explain it.
I told him that I used to like him. I thought I'd gotten over him.
But after I told him I didn't like him anymore, something inside me changed.
I feel different.
I was so convinced that he'd hate me if he knew. But he didn't. He knew the whole time.
He didn't even show it.
Or maybe I was just too blind to notice.
What else shocks me is how he didn't treat me any differently, even though he knew.
We didn't change.
Here I am between crying and laughing, wondering how I feel.
The point was to tell him I was over him and get rid of that weight on my shoulders before school starts. I don't need the extra stress.
But now here I am. More stressed than ever.
On top of that, I barely know him.
It's weird because usually I know people before I like them.
I mean, yeah, he's in my friend group but I don't really know him.
Maybe that's why I like him.
Maybe I like him because I want to know him.
Oh...wait.
He doesn't go to school with me.
He's going to the other highschool.
I've already seen him for the last time.
How do I feel about this?
I hugged him on the last day of school.
He seemed a little tense but he accepted the hug.
Everyone was hugging him.
Everyone loves him.
I'm just happy that this time wasn't like last time where I was humiliated.
I didn't even like her. I liked how people liked her.
But this is different.
"Guy" is my first legitimate guy crush.
It is one of the strangest feelings I have ever felt.
My life's a mess.
I'm confused.
But a good confused....?
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Tongue-Biter
Teen FictionThey don't understand. I want to talk to people. But every time I try, my heart races and I start to hyperventilate. No one knows, of course. Well, except a few close friends. Will I ever make a sound? Or stay a tongue-biter forever? *WARNING* Sensi...