Hello, everyone
It hurts me severely to tell you this but I have to
I'm leaving Wattpad
Meaning I can't post anymore
My family doesn't know about it so I can't download it on my new phone ( I'm using my old one to upload this )
My mental health has been getting really bad again over the past two or three days
I can't fight the fact that I am hallucinating
I have had several thoughts about hurting myself again and contemplated suicide a few times as well
I am planning on telling my family I need help soon
I don't know when but I have to tell them
I started a journal tonight about my mental health and my everything
I have also been having an insane amount of nightmares about me and/or my family being murdered by the things I hallucinate about
And if you're wondering, my hallucinations aren't like people. They're kind of like people but they're monsters
They tell me that if I try to get help, they'll kill me or they'll kill my family and I'll be alone
The couple times I got help, like I talked to someone, they told me that if I said too much then I'd end up forgotten in a mental hospital and I'd be alone
I'd be abandoned by everyone
They also say if I try to get help that they'll make me hurt myself again like I used to do
I created these voices in my brain when I was alone because I was scared
Then they turned into monsters and the things that took the fear now brought it back
Now I would give anything to make them go away
When I do something they don't like, they stop talking
They know I hate silence because silence means I'm alone
They do it all the time when I try talking about them
I am really sorry about this
About leaving you all
Maybe I'll be back someday
But for now
This is goodbye
Goodbye Wattpad, sincerely Logan Leigh
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