The two friends sat huddled together on a haystack in the barn, not that it was cold but they both were drawing comfort from their body contact. Suddenly Sawyer broke the silence. "I can only speak for myself" he said, "but I have rarely felt truly happy, and now that is exactly how I do feel. It comes from being with you, from even just feeling our bodies touching. I~i'm not good talking like this Biro, but I can't somehow see my tomorrow's without you being part of them. I~i proper love you, sorry I don't go around bawling my eyes out like this all the time." His friend just embraced him, also feeling the same connection. Sawyer continued "I can't face letting you go, because I know that I care more for you than I care for myself, and that must be love. Maybe I can come and live in your world Biro? or you could come and live in mine. There must be a way, and i've made my mind up, i'll face anyone and any embarrassment to avoid losing you." Biro started laughing, so suddenly that it startled Sawyer as the absurdness of the whole situation hit him, saying, "Here we both are, falling in love with people that most even deny the existence of, and scheming on how to spend our lives together. What would they think if only they knew."
They sat awhile longer, mulling over their options, but they were agreed that their lives needed to be lives lived together. Both realized how hard and difficult this could be as they sat there pledging their whole futures to each other. "Could we both live in your world Biro?" Sawyer asked. "Honestly! I don't think so" said Biro. "I don't know of any such joinings and I don't think the folks of my world would be able to understand it. Before I set eyes on you i'm not even sure how I would have viewed such a union. And what about you Sawyer? how would the folks of your world take to this kind of joining?" "Well, it certainly does occur in my world and is accepted by most, although not all. It would be a hard thing for me to admit to my family. But they would I'm sure come around to it, and luckily I have no friends to worry about!" This Sawyer said with a rueful smile. "So yeah in my world it is certainly possible. I don't know where we would live or how we would manage, but we would be together and we could go away somewhere, I don't know where but we would be together so that would be all of my wishes answered." Sawyer felt as though a huge weight had lifted from his shoulders. Suddenly he didn't feel lonely, in fact he knew with certainty that he would never feel that way again. His life was changed and all of the obstacles that he could foresee ahead of them he knew they would find a way past them. He grabbed hold of Biro and kissed him passionately in a way he had never kissed anyone before. Hot tears of relief and joy streamed down wetting both of their cheeks. Biro kissed him back with the same fervor as their pledged their commitment to each other. "I love you so much Sawyer" he said in a choked up voice. "You are my angel from heaven, don't you ever leave me."
They lay there holding each other for hours, just enjoying their new sense of belonging. Eventually Biro told him that they would need to go back to the pond as it would be feeding time for the animals soon and people would be coming to the barn. Also they would be expecting him to put in an appearance shortly to do his share of the work. Reluctantly Sawyer agreed, even though he felt as though he wanted to stay here with his boyfriend forever. "I'll go first" Biro said, "then if it's all clear I'll call you over." He strolled nonchalantly over to the the boundary fence and carefully scanned the area before waving his friend over. Sawyer quickly scooted over to his friend and they made their way back to the pond. Promising each other as they walked that they would meet at the same time the next day to make their plans for their future together. Arriving back at the pond and under the cover of the huge bushy bamboo, that somehow felt like a friend to them, they kissed each other goodbye.
Sawyer emerged into his own world and walked away form the pond, his mind swarming with thoughts racing through it. Even so he walked with a jaunty carefree step and in no time he had arrived back home. As soon as he entered his house he knew something was wrong, as his brother was home and so was his mum. Seeing his puzzled look his mum said "don't worry love, I came back home because Finn had an accident this morning. It's okay, he's alright but I didn't want to leave him on his own, i'm sure he'll tell you all about it." He looked over at Finn laying down on the settee and straightway got an icy glare and the finger line across the throat sign. Barely had his mum left the room when Finn said, cutting straight to the chase, and almost hissing his words out. "I followed you today big bro. I thought I watched you die!" In the middle of this tirade Sawyer was mortified to see a flood of tears practically spurting from Finns eyes. Sawyer flung himself onto his brother, almost dislodging him from the couch. "I'm sorry Finn, I'm so sorry, I thought you didn't care about me anymore, and then, I drifted away. I do love you Finn, so much!" Karen came to the doorway to see what all the fuss was about and was greeted with the sight of her two sons hugging each other and both in tears. Silently she backed out of the room and quietly closed the door. Something very strange was going on today, but it heartened her greatly to see her boys connecting in a way that she hadn't seen in years. She needn't involve herself in this.
YOU ARE READING
Lonely Boy(by dyjonn)
FantasyEverybody see's Sawyer as a committed loner but it's the last thing he really wants to be
