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Imagine #12

{Derek Shepard- three empty words}

I'll pick you up at the same time,
At the same place, the same old drive
We'll just talk about our day
To try to fill the awkward space tonight

You could feel the distance that forming between you and your boyfriend of several years but you didn't want to accept nor could you.

We'll play the songs we used to love
While we try to fall in love again

Does he even love you anymore? You can't tell. You've been contemplating your feelings for a while now though. He was your first love, your first kiss, your first everything. That kind of love doesn't just doesn't go away does it?

We don't know who's wrong or right
We don't even care enough to fight
We're going through the motions

You can feel him slipping through your fingers. You can sense that's there's nothing you can do. You watch him from a distance smiling and laughing with Meredith Grey, the same way he used to be with you, something that's long gone. The arguments don't even have a winner or loser anymore, they just stop abruptly. Neither of you want to argue anymore, you both are so tired of the fighting.

'Cause we can't fix what's broken
And I know it's gonna hurt
But, darling, I'll go first
'Cause I won't keep on saying those three empty words
No, I won't keep on saying those three empty words

You grab your suitcase and pile the clothing into it. You only grabbed other things that you really just couldn't live without. The jewelry box that contained every piece of jewelry Derek had ever purchased for you remained on the dresser with every piece still inside. Grabbing the last few things you need you contemplate how you even ended up here. Two people once madly in love, couldn't keep their hand off of each other to two people who can even be in the same room for two seconds.

We're still talking everyday
I'm running out of things to say to ya
What's really gonna break my heart
Is to have to tell your little brother

It might be easier to stay
But it'll never be the same, no, oh, no
And if something doesn't change
Then we'll keep on sinking further

It sucks. That feeling you feel. Powerless. All the therapy the two o you went through, for nothing. You feel as though it was something you done. Maybe it was something you didn't do...

Oh, we're going through the motions
'Cause we can't fix what's broken
And I know it's gonna hurt
But, darling, I'll go first
'Cause I won't keep on saying those three empty words
Those three empty words
Will only make it worse
I'm tired, I can't take it anymore
Those three empty words
Will only make it worse
We're tired, we can't take it anymore

How have you made it this far? You are drowning and nothing can save you. If you were Meredith he would've done anything to protect you but you just you. And you can never be her.

We're going through the motions
'Cause we can't fix what's broken, no
And I know it's gonna hurt
But, darling, I'll go first
I won't keep on saying those three empty words
We don't have to keep on saying those three empty words
No, I can't keep on saying those three empty words

You stand up off the couch and walk out the door taking one last look at the small trailer you learned to love for him. Sitting by the sink was a letter. It read:

Derek,

    I love you... but I'll never be her. We've drifted and we can't seem to find our way back to one another. I can no longer say 'I love you' and not hear the words in return. Where did we go wrong? Maybe it's been a thing that's been long coming we've just pretended it didn't matter. I hope we can still be friends though. See you at work...

Love, (y/n)

(Song~ three empty words- Shawn Mendes)