ARIA'S POV
"Ari I'm going out with the rest of the gang today. We're gonna grab lunch or something. Wanna come ?", Alina's voice chirped through the phone.
It was 8AM and it was still too early for me to socialise at the moment.
"Sure yeah I'll ask mom. I'm asleep bye", I mumbled as wiggled deeper into my warm blanket cocoon.
"Okay lazy bones. And Ryan's coming too because well, we have the same friends. Is that alright?", she asked.
Well that got my attention and, my sleep. I hadn't seen Ryan since the day I left after the party, which had been a week ago. I had a feeling he was deliberately keeping his distance.
I'm not going to lie, I have recently been hanging out over at Ali's a lot, maybe so I could catch a glimpse of him but his room always remained shut or isolated.
"Of course , why would that be a problem?", I answered trying to sound as nonchalant as possible.
"Oh we both know why. Toodles babe.", Ali laughed as she blew me a kiss through the phone.
I lay in bed replaying the happenings of the party. How he'd noticed the dress. The way he'd looked away when I had put my arms around him. When his hesitant hands wrapped around my waist as I snuggled into him. I was drunk at the time but I could still feel it all.
That night I hadn't been myself. I would never dance in front of a crowd, I look like a moving cactus. I'd never had a drop of alcohol before either. The events of that night have been going through my mind like an old record stuck on replay.
I got out of bed and got dressed. If I was going to see Ryan today I had to look my best. I don't know why I was making the effort after he saw me drunk and hungover but hey, a girl has to try.
Its not like I had a crush on him. Did I ? I haven't had a crush since my ex and I broke up last year.
Even if I did have crushes they disappeared over a period of two days. I pondered over the situation, as usual, over thinking it. I finally came to the conclusion that I did not like Ryan and that night had been an exception.
I knew how feelings worked. When you fall for someone, the pain is inevitable. And I knew a thing or two about pain. I'd lived through it and I lived with it inside.
With a sigh I stepped into the shower. As the warm water hit my body, my mind relaxed. Today was going to be a normal day. Feelings meant nothing to me anymore.
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Author's note: Hey loves ! Its been a while since I've updated but I've been super super busy with exams so bear with me.
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Novela Juvenil"Its a form of art, to love something broken. They push you away and scream till you fall to your knees in exhaustion, but then, there are those nights where they need you to hold them at 2am when their body is shaking with pain. A pain that stems f...
