All That Matters

Chapter Nineteen

Aria's POV
Song suggestion: No sense - Justin Bieber ft. Travis Scott

I felt better after my talk with Ryan the other day. Everything about him confused me. One moment he was laughing at my jokes and the next, he shut off from the world.

I couldn't help but think of him. His beauty was unreal. His crooked smile, the way he pulled his lip ring between his teeth caused  butterflies to erupt in my whole body. As hard as I tried to keep him out of my head, it was useless. Its not like anything would ever happen between us, would it ?

He clearly stated guys his age only wanted sex and that was the last thing on my mind. I was determined to keep my V card for as long as possible. I didn't want to regret losing it to someone like Shaun. I'd already wasted my first kiss on him.

Speaking of him, I'd successfully managed to avoid him and dodge his calls all week. Looked like he'd given up. I could finally breathe in peace.

With boredom in the air, I decided to go see Alina. She'd been down with a flu and had kept herself locked up for a few days. She was finally feeling better so I could go visit. She had a lot to catch up with.

I knocked on her door. "

"Come in", she said, her voice hoarse. I peeked to see if Ryan was around the house before stepping inside but as usual, his door was shut tight.

"Are you feeling better?", I asked sitting down on her bed.

"Much much better", she said with a smile. "Okay update me. I feel like I haven't seen you in ages."

So I began telling her all about Aisha and my talk with Ryan on the rooftop.

"Wait what ? Ryan talked to you ? In a civilised manner ? He asked you questions ? He laughed ? I think you've got the wrong guy because that sure as hell ain't my brother.", she interrupted, propping herself up on one elbow.

"I mean he does cuss a lot but it was fine. Why ?", I said, recalling the memory.

"Ryan's an asshole. He doesn't laugh and neither does he show interest in anyone except himself anymore. He's my brother but he's not the best person Ari, my advice it to stay away from him. He's a complicated person.", she said shaking her head.

"Oh", was all I could say. Its not like I had planned on texting him tonight after stalking and tracking down his IG profile. I changed the topic and told her the rest of the things that had occurred. Soon it was time to leave.

As I quietly closed her door behind me, I almost bumped into someone as I turned around.

"Jessica?", I said, a little taken aback.  "Um Ali just decided to take a nap but you can go see her now."

"Actually I'm not here for her but I hope she's feeling better.", she said with a fake smile.

"Why are you here then?", I asked. As the words left my mouth, I noticed she wasn't wearing a bra. I could make out that she had piercings. Oh.

As if on cue, Ryan stepped out of his room. My legs almost gave out at the sight of him shirtless. He had a tattoo wrapping around his left forearm snaking all the way up to his shoulder that I'd never seen before. It had always been hidden under his clothes.

He wore a pair of grey sweats and had a black bandana holding his dark ruffled hair back. He was holding a joint between his lips. It was the sexiest thing I'd ever seen. I could practically feel my jaw hanging.

"Hey there sunshine.", he smirked. I choked on air. Was it even possible to look that good out of Instagram ?

"Bye sexy. Lets do this again some time.", Jessica said as she walked over to him and ran her hands down his toned abs.

Oh. They were... Oh. My heart sank. There was no way I would ever fall for someone like him. I still had no idea if they were together. Honestly, she seemed just right for him.

As Jessica left, Ryan took a few steps towards me.

"Um.. Okay I was just leaving.", I said hurriedly. Ryan looked as uncomfortable as I was feeling.

"I know what you're thinking. You can say it.", he said, releasing a cloud of smoke into the air.

"No you have no idea what I'm thinking and trust me, you don't want to hear it.", I retorted and walked towards the front door. I knew he was just another play boy but I just didn't want to accept it. Something in me had hoped that maybe he wouldn't be the person I thought he was but he was exactly what I had been avoiding. Another weed and sex addicted fuckboy.

"Aria...", he called out behind me. I turned around and crossed my arms.

"What?", I snapped at him.

"Nothing. Fuck it. Bye", he said as he walked back into his room, shutting the door with a loud bang.

I stomped back home and flung myself on my bed. Grabbing my phone, I blocked him on Instagram. I didn't like him. Never did never will.