Hey guys! I just want to say a big thank you to all the people who have been reading and commenting recently. You guys have no idea how happy it makes me! Also, it gives me the encouragement I need to keep writing, which is probably why I've been updating more frequently! YAY!
Oh, there's a new POV in this story, so I hope you enjoy!
-Abby
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*Liam's POV*
I saw the cuts...Why did Niall have to bring this up now? We just spent one amazing day together, one that made it seem like we were actually on the right track to fix our friendship, but then he said that.And now I'm frozen, standing here with him looking at me expectantly, his arms around me. My heart is racing because of our closeness and because I'm nervous now. Is he going to judge my decisions? I never meant for this to happen.
"Liam?" Niall whispers, sadness in his eyes as they look into mine.
"What am I supposed to say, Niall? I can't deny that they're there, so what do you want to hear from me?" I ask, barely keeping my voice steady. I'm not only trying to stay quiet, but I'm also trying to keep the anger and depression out of my voice.
"I just... I want to know why. Why would you do that to yourself?" His brilliant blue eyes are watering as he says this.
"Niall..." I don't know where to begin, so I just start at the beginning. "When I was younger, I had to have shots every morning and night because of my kidneys. I was bullied at school. I was constantly being hurt by the people I thought were my friends." I'm tearing up and I don't know if I can go on.
"I'm sorry," Niall utters, pain in his eyes.
"Don't be," I snap. I breathe deeply to calm myself before I go on. "At some point, I learned how to fight, but that didn't stop me from being attacked emotionally. The depression started a couple of years ago and it steadily got worse. This has been happening on and off for over a year. And you are the only person who has noticed."
"Li, I noticed because I care." Niall pulls me closer to him, hugging me tightly once again. "It pains me to see that you're hurting. I don't care how stupid or cheesy this sounds to you because it's true."
"Then why did you walk out of my life in the first place?" I inquire, tears spilling over. Tears of anger at both Niall and myself and life in general.
"Because I was scared, Li."
I lift my arms from my sides and wrap them around the blonde boy before me. I want to be angry, I do, but right now I know we both need each other. "Scared of what?" I finally ask, still holding him tightly.
Niall's body suddenly tenses up in my arms and he pulls back.
"Scared of what, Niall?" The anger is making its way into my voice now.
"Scared of myself. Scared of my own emotions."
"Why?" I need to know.
"Because... Because my feelings were confusing me. They still are. I don't know how I feel about anyone or anything. I thought if I had time away I would be able to sort things out, but all it did was hurt both of us," Niall informs me, speaking quickly and without breathing.
"What do you mean by 'feelings'? What feelings are there that are confusing you?" My heart is racing more than it was before. What is he talking about?
"I... I don't know. I just... Have you ever questioned your sexuality?"
What does that have to do with anything? "Why?"
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Is It So Wrong? ~ A COMPLETED One Direction Fanfiction ~ EDITING
FanfictionLiam Payne had always had a rough time growing up, but this new school is worse than anything he could have ever imagined. | Niall Horan has always been a confident guy, but what happens when his new best friend makes him start questioning himself...
