*Niall's POV*
It's funny how much a person can change over the course of a few months. I mean, about three months ago I was contemplating whether or not I was straight. Almost three months ago I thought I might be developing feelings for a guy. Two months ago I went on my first real date, which is how I met Sara. A month and a half ago I forced myself to decide who I thought my feelings were for, which is when I asked Sara to be my girlfriend. And a month ago, well, I made the worst decision of my life.
A month ago I decided that I couldn't handle being around my best friend if it meant being made fun of everyday, so I stopped hanging out with him at school. I knew he understood, but it still hurt him. It hurts me knowing that I've hurt him. I tried calling him a few times, but he won't talk to me. He won't look me I'm the eyes anymore, but can I blame him? I chose to be a selfish prat instead of sticking up for him the way he did for me.
It scared me being around him. He was so easy to spend time with, I almost forgot about the rest of the world when I was with him. Heck, spending time with him made me question my decision to date Sara. I couldn't let that happen. I do like Sara. I do. I just don't know why. Except... She's like the female version of Liam. I can see why they got along when they were younger; they're like identical twins, but they're fraternal cousins. They even look similar.
This is what scares me: being around Liam feels the same as when I hang out with Sara, if not better. Sara is just a less masculine version of Liam. WHY ARE MY FEELINGS SO DAMN CONFUSING?!
Don't get me wrong. I wouldn't give up Sara for anything. Not now. But Liam was supposed to be my best friend and I gave him up because I got scared. I don't know if I can look him in the eyes again. It just... Hurts.
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*Liam's POV*
"Gonna run home to your mommy, little faggot?"
"Awe, does Payne miss his boyfriend? Boo freaking hoo."
"Where's Horan, Liam? Did he find someone better for him?"
"Awe, look at that. Liam's eyes are watering!"
"Gonna cry, gay boy?"
The insults got worse when Niall stopped hanging around with me. Honestly, it hurts that he left me to face this myself, but it was my fault in the first place. Niall never deserved any of this.
"Gay boy is crying, guys! Look!"
They're not wrong. Every word they say cuts me like a knife. It's a pain I know all too well. I could fight back; I have more training than all these pricks combined, but I've lost the will to fight. Why should I? At the end of the day, who's gonna care that I fought them off? They're just going to come back tomorrow with even more of their little friends.
Ow! Someone just threw a stone at me. It was small, but they whipped it hard enough to leave a mark already. Oh, great; they're all grabbing pebbles. The pebbles are showering down on me like hail, but I don't care. The physical pain drives the emotional pain away temporarily.
"Hey, back off you little turds!"
Wait, that voice... Where have I heard that voice before?
"Hey, you okay, Liam?" the voice asks.
I look up to see who it is, but quickly hide my face again. It's Greg. It had to be Greg.
"No offence, but you look like shit. You look like you're bleeding pretty badly."
"Why are you here?" I ask, face still hidden. I'm in an almost fetal position on the ground, but sitting up.
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Is It So Wrong? ~ A COMPLETED One Direction Fanfiction ~ EDITING
FanfictionLiam Payne had always had a rough time growing up, but this new school is worse than anything he could have ever imagined. | Niall Horan has always been a confident guy, but what happens when his new best friend makes him start questioning himself...
