Room 302

.19

The car hits me.
I go flying over the car's hood and top then i land on the asphalt.

I laid on my back feeling like every bone in my body was broken.
My arms hurt like i had lifted a heavy weight leaving me with jello feeling arms.
My legs hurt like i had ran a hundred miles.
My chest burned like i was caught in a burning building and couldn't escape while smoke filled my lungs choking me.
I couldn't move my legs.

Like my legs were pinned under the titanic and my arms pinned under king kong.

I stared at the dark grey sky.
It felt like a millennium.
I could only hear ringing.
Nothing else.

Like a phone was ringing and i was rushing down the stairs trying to grasp it before it went to voicemail.

I could feel my entire body bruising up.
My face expecially.
I could definitely feel hot red liquid run down my nose.
Blood.
I remember its metallic taste when i bite down on my tongue when i'm thinking.

Blood made me think of my dad's fiance's fiery hair.
I almost grin at the thought of her hair.
It looked terrible.

I feel my fingers twitch but i knew that was a nerve in my muscle.

my body fighting to the very last breathe to stay alive.
Did my mother feel all this?
I finally see a raindrop fall and hit my forehead.
In seconds it was pouring.
I don't think i paid attention to the rain while we walked.

Have i ever felt gratful for the soothing rain?
The beating drum sounds when the rain hits the ground like a bullet hitting its target.

I feel it soak my face.
The cold water made me want to cry.
And i do.
At least i think i do.
I couldn't tell if it was a salty tear or a raindrop that had fallen right by my eye or not.

"ALEXIS!" I hear someone say in the distance.
Has it really only been seconds?
I get pulled under again.
Like i was drunk.
Too drunk to move.
Like i had fallen in to the deep part of the pool and i was trying to swim down to the bottom but i didn't have enough air to do so.

I remember Bria in our pool once.
I was trying to teach her how to swim but she could only doggy paddle.
Could i doggy paddle my way up?

I know it hasn't been seconds.
I know for a fact.
But of course... you weren't suppose to touch a fallen victim's head.
It could cause brain trauma.

I try tilting my head to look at anything but the bleak grey skies.
Were they sad for me?
was the sky crying?
I wanted to see the sweet blue sky.
Or the painted sky that had many different colors in it.
Like it was painted with different colors.
Like someone just threw the paint on the canvas expecting it to be horrible but in reality it was beautiful.

Could i be describing Aden?
I almost laugh.
Gosh that hurt.
My lungs burned as i almost laugh.
I had told him.
I had promised.
He asked me not to die today.
I guess i'm a promise breaker.

I listen to the rain hitting the asphalt with me.
I finally hear the sirens of a ambulance.
I close my eyes.
The pain was unbearable.
Like i was hit by a car and thrown over the roof.
Like i had commited suicide.
Suicide, i once thought i could take my own life by jumping off the roof of our house.
Guess what?
It wasn't high enough and i broke my wrist.
I landed in the shrubs of course.
I should have picked a rougher surface.
I have yet to find that floor board that creaks when you step on it.

Would that be Bria's favorite game?
Try to find the floor board?
My mind raced as i laid there as the ambulance raced towards me.
Would it hit me like the car did?