Heartbreak

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“Everyone does mistake but only a few realize it and bothers to apologize and others just don't care.”

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S h r a d d h a

The moment when Varun uttered those words, I did not see Varun who hurted me but instead I saw a boy who was vulnerable.

He closed his eyes tightly running his hand across his hair anxiously before taking a deep breath and looking at me, again.

“Back then, I was carefree, arrogant, a silly 17 year old rich brat who did not know the actual meaning of life and the value of love..........I believed money, luxury, breaking hearts, drinking is life until.........life hit me hard.” He said while I stood in silence.

Afterall, what could I say in such a situation?

“It happened so fast which my mind couldn't register. I was out with my friends fully drunk and passed out. My family left a dozen miss calls for me and of course I didn't picked it until the next day.........but it was too late.” He said as a tear manged to escape from his eye even though he tried his best to control it.

“My mom had a severe accident the day I was drunk and when I reached her in the morning, she was gone......dad said she wanted me to see for the last time.” He said.

My heart crushed watching him in this state and I wanted to rush towards him and hug him, cry with him and whisper everything would be okay but I couldn't.

“I......I am sorry for your loss.” I said while he shook his head.

“I......I just wished I could see my mom for the last time.......” He said, his voice in the verge of breaking.

“But because of my stupidity, I couldn't see her.” He said.

“The day changed me, it made me realize how a asshole I was and how I hurted my dear ones and how I wasted such a life.......which is why I decided.” He said.

“I decided to apologize to the people I hurted in my past and if possible try to make them accept my apologies.......it's the least I could do as I could not erase the mistakes of my past even though I want to.” He said.

“Atleast it makes me feel less guilty and I wish.....” He paused and pointed at the sky.

“My mom would forgive me.” He said, smiling sadly making me want to cry at him.

“This is what I wanted to convey you, Shraddha, It's upto to forgive me and I couldn't force you. I am sorry if I became a bother to you.” He said and sighed.

I guess, It's time for me to speak as he gazed into my eyes waiting eagerly as to what I would speak.

I would be a lie if I didn't feel bad for Varun because unlike him I loved him from all my heart and it pains to see him breaking down.

“Varun, I forgive you.” I said and his face lit up at my statement.

“But, I could never forget what you did to me. You and me is not possible now or in the future whether it may be friends or any other relation.........I do not want to hold any grudges against you and I forgive you but........”