Heartbreak

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“I sit by the window side of our college's cafeteria all my myself, inhaling the fresh arouma of coffee.

I have been waiting for the past ten minutes here only to catch a glimpse of one person, I am here for.

Much to my happiness, I notice her walking into the college canteen with her two friends who always stick by her unlike me.

Shraddha notices me and looks away as if I doesn't exist and that feeling punched my heart.

The thing that hurt me the most is not when Shraddha hit me or yell at me or look at me with hate. But, when she look through me like I am the invisible person, shoots daggers through my heart.

But, I deserved it anyway. I hurt her in the worst way possible and how can I expect her to like a man like me?

Honestly, I feel she deserves better. At the same time, I couldn't feel but stare at her, feel intrigued towards her and my mind always pushes me to find a reason to talk to her.

I sit straight and shook my head. No, I should control my feelings. She clearly despises me with all her heart and I do not want to cause any more trouble than I caused her.

I am not the one for her.

I am the one who stands far away from her, yet close and wish for her happiness.

I look at her one last time before adjusting my specs and opening the books which I need to study for today.

I close and books and look at the time to see it was half past four whcih means, I studies more than an hour. I sighed before dumping the books in my bag and got up.

I looked at the window when a thunder hit the sky, dark clouds hovering upon the sky.

I stare at the dark gloomy sky my mind bringing back to the girl, again. Soon enough, it started pouring down hard creating noises against my window.

Rain reminds me of her. I always know how much she adored rain and it makes me want to love rain as well.

I opened the umbrella before taking my bag and heading out. —There was no one in the college premises and it was expected as the college hours where over long ago.

I open the umbrella before stepping my foot and started walking.

I looked at the sky and sighed. The weather was gloomy just like my life. There was no twists and turns in my life. Just a plain old life with a lot of pain and guilt to hold throughout my life.

Just then, I saw someone in the football field sitting on the bench completely drenching in rain. —As I got nearer, the person's face became more clear and it was Shraddha.

She noticed my presence but looked away, pretending I didn't exist. I thought to walk away but seeing her getting drenched in rain stopped me.

I walked up to her.

“You are getting wet in rain. Need help.” I asked. –She shook her head without looking up at me.

“Look, I know you don't want to talk to me but the weather looks like the rain would not stop any second and you will catch fever if you continue to stay here........not to forget the exams coming over.” I said and she got up as soon as I mentioned exams.