New Body

Ichi = Staring off Into Space

My name is- No, that's boring. Let's start with...

"Shit."

Did I just die? I think I did. I mean, unless that was someone else getting cut up by their mostest-favoritestestestest professor ever! I'm fucking with you, of course. There's no way that would happen. I just call him that to piss him off. Maybe I... overdid it a little bit? I tossed the thought away immediately. If he didn't like me correcting his work he should have done it right in the first place. I honestly think he might have had a bit of a crush on me. I am quite the beau- was quite the beauty.

Ulgh. "This sucks more then anal! If Idda known this was gonna happen, idda hidden my diaries!" Oh wait, that's not the important bit, is it?

I was currently feeling like I was floating. In space. But it was black. I also feel like I'm spinning? But like... doing a flip instead of turning right or left? But I wasn't moving. Not me, I mean. I myself wasn't using any muscles or anything to move like that. You know... like floating. Maybe this is what astronauts feel like? I put my hands out in front of me and tried feeling 'weightless'.

"No." I put them down immediately. "I don't feel weightless. I feel..."

I tried to get a sense of what I was feeling. I felt as if I was somewhere... Like, it's not like I was using my actual body to move in spirit form or anything. Because I'm a ghost. Or spirit. Or just dead. Or just something.

Well, 'just something' must feel like you have a body, and you can move, but you can't move your body. And you can't feel anything from your body. You just... can't feel anything. I'm also surrounded by darkness but... I didn't feel like I'm seeing darkness- or the absence of light- I just feel like I'm not seeing anything. Well, like I an but my eyes aren't open to do the seeing. Like, I wasn't looking.

Oh! I know! It's like when you're daydreaming and you are looking at something but you aren't really seeing what you're looking at, you know? You know like how you can stare at a spray bottle with your thoughts elsewhere for minutes and minutes with your thoughts elsewhere but than come back to reality and not even know you were staring off into spac-

Hey! That's exactly what it feels like! Like my thoughts are elsewhere and I'm staring off into space! Haha! I'm smart.

But it's not like those times when I was alive. Because I haven't 'come back to reality'. There might not even be one to go back to. Oh, no! If there's no reality then- My Friends!

I want to cry.

All those years of hard work to get my degree, all those books I'll never see again, all those cosmetics and hair care products that I'll never be able to use! "I was so close to having enough to buy that new foundation, too!"

This reminds me of all the times I would daydream and they would pull me back to reality. I would blink back into reality and they- they would...

Wait... It worked?! Realit- Just as I was about to toss my hands in the air in a 'V' for 'Victor' Wait... That's weird. I could have sworn I saw my bloodied chest and- I paused again. What ceilin- Where am- ... Ouch.

(A/N Hm... Well, I TRIED doing pictures. It seems windows 10 isn't liking me. Or the computer. Idk. I'm one that likes old and simple with fewer restrictions. AH~Well. Sorry)