"I look around and all I see are empty people,
empty people going through the daily routine in their mundane lives,
Yes they're walking, breathing, moving -
but when you look deeper -
they're all dead inside.
The more time goes by -
the more we forget what it feels like to have passions, excitement, desires.
And I myself am trapped
Silently going through my every day tasks but on the inside I'm screaming to break out.
Tired of going to a school I hate, making small talk, pursuing empty dreams -
One day I'm going to break.
All we seem to do is the same exact, mind numbing thing every single day
I'm scared I'm going to end up like everyone else in this place and it's slowly driving me insane.
But how to I escape?
How do I fill this void inside me?
What's the answer - travelling, religion, fame?
We just live for temporary moments,little bits of happiness to ease our pain.
But soon as those moments are finished the dark thoughts creep up on us again.
No one ever talks about it, we force ourselves to suppress it, but we all know it's there.
I mean who says there's only one type of way of living anyway?
Sometimes I feel like no one else gets it it's like sure you can dream - but don't dream too big cos you need to be realistic,
I look around and no one seems to be happy,everyone's looking into their phone screens to block themselves from reality cos reality has become too depressing we watch ourselves counting down the clock, wasting time with our empty lives?
most people would rather settle and just survive, than take a chance to know what it feels like to really be alive,
They tell me that this is the way to do things properly,and I just can't help but question why?
Surely, I can't be wrong for wanting more in life?
One day I'll wake up and think fuck, I've wasted my life away.
And you know what the worst part is - I'll only have myself to blame.
I can't let myself become that person, I refuse, I need to make a change,
Life isn't a movie, I can't just wait for things to magically fall into place,
if I want to truly live,
if I want to make something of myself,
then the change has to start today."
~clickfortaz
My situation, my view of all of this, is described in this spoken word poem. I don't know how to feel honestly with everything bottling up, everyone turning against one another... myself included.. its just all making me think and wonder, how much better things would be if i just weren't here.. Sounds stupid, and suicidal.. but, i mean it as.. what if i just moved away? Maybe things will get better.. Obviously i won't do that.. i have no choice but to go through this feeling of being trapped.. all i know is that, starting today, i'm going to try to be the best i can be.. Not only for me, but for the people around me..
Maybe you all should do the same.
