You know how to make me smile, you know how to make me laugh at our old memories, you know when im sad, when im just not acting like myself... You know it all, and I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for just not talking it out with you... I'm sorry Jonathan... you are worthy of a second chance.. you are.. and i don't know what's wrong with me.. I don't know why I ignored you for someone else.. I still have our pictures.. I still have your jacket.. I still have you in my mind every single day.. as well as in my heart.. and I'm so sorry for not realizing it sooner.. all you've done is protect me since you carried me home.. that's all you've done for me.. thank you for that..right now, I just don't know how to feel.. everything is so piled up, I can't just forget it and move on. I need time to restore, I'm sorry.. I care. I really do.. i need you to know that. Lets just talk it over and see where it'll take us.. i miss you, my sweet protector.
~March 4th, 2018~
A little something i wrote for you. I know you'll forgive me for pushing you away.. i know you will. I know that if i wanted to, youd date me right now. However thats not right of me, and you know.. Youre funny for doing all of this, i know that even if you cheated on me.. You'll always come to me first, unlike others. Im grateful for you.. Your stupidity is not what im grateful for of course, but just you.. my best friend.. Thank you for trying for me, for not letting me go, for just loving me when i wasnt able to love you in return. Thank you Johnny, youre like my shield through this destruction, and for that.. i am ever so grateful.
