Kai

Chapter 22

We laid cuddled up in his living room couch watching movies. His warmth was like a sweet fragrance, it elevated my mood. He was comfort in all ways I could imagine. I stared it him as he watched the movie. I admired his plump lips remembering how it touched mine. My eyes trailed up reaching his eyes. He felt my glare looking down at me. "What?" he asked. "Nothing" I said snapping out of my trance. I want you too. I tried to focus on the TV but his fingers lead my face towards his. "Look at me, if you don't wanna watch the movie just say so" he said shrugging. "Uh...um..I...the movie is fine" I said trying to speak. He giggled at my struggle to speak. "I know the movie is boring, you can stare for as long as you like" he said smiling. I smiled back snuggling into his arms. With you I feel safe. I could feel his heartbeat pulsate life into his body. Hearing him reminded me of his pacemaker. It made me reevaluate even him. He's been hurt before just like me. "Kai?" I said still snuggled in his chest. "Yeah?" He said looking down on me. I got up out of his arms and faced him. I stared innocently into his eyes. Everything around me seemed to twinkle. I knew this wasn't a fairytale but it felt just as perfect. I leaned closer, stopping right before touching his lips. I smirked staring into his eyes. Suddenly his arms wrapped around my body bringing me into a passionate kiss.

It felt like a dream, his lips were too soft to the touch, his eyes were too compassionate. I'd fallen for him harder than I'd expected. Fantasies and reality somehow work together till they become each other. "Call me when you get home, okay" he said at his front door. "I will" I said walking over to my car.

I made it home to Reign vaping in the front yard. Getting out of my car I started to question her motives. "You good?" I asked getting closer. "Yeah, I just wanted to breath" she said looking up at the sky. "I feel like we've been so distanced lately" she quickly looked at me ready to respond. She sighed releasing the smoke before talking. "I'm scared" she said holding herself back. "Of what?" I asked confused. "I'm scared of losing you. Look, I'm sorry I haven't been myself lately. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me" she said starting to tear up. My eyes widened by her tears. I immediately brought her into a hug. "It's okay" I said comforting her. "I try not to get too attached because...." she continued to cry even harder. My shirt was dripping wet from her tears. What happened to us?

I sat her on the couch inside, waiting for her response. I deeply stared at her oddly positioned body. She sat crouched up in a ball, hugging her knees. What is it that bothers her? "Are you okay?" I asked concerned. "No. I've been purposely ignoring you and I'm sorry" she said staring down at her feet. "Uh...It's okay, but why?" I asked. "I don't know I'm just careless and blind. I'm so blind that I can't even confront you. I guess I love you too much" she said with a slight smirk. "But you're scared...." "Of losing you. I rarely get to even talk to you. Usually you return home late or the next day. I feel like whenever we're together it's never really because of something good. I don't know, we...I felt like our friendship was just falling apart" she said looking up at me. I couldn't form not a single word. Everything she said was true and I couldn't feel more guilty. I've neglected my world and paid attention to only myself. Selfish. My throat tensed as tears started to fall from my face. "I'm sorry" I said as I wiped my tears away. I recollected myself trying to brighten the mood. "Let's go on a date, it's my treat" I said smiling. She nodded in response getting up from the couch. Her heavy body slammed onto my chest as she squeezed me into a tighter hug. "Love you" she said squeezing me tighter. "Love you too potato" I said laughing.

We walked the streets of downtown Miami twitch a cold cup of ice cream in our hands. The breeze comforted us as we giggled taking in small bites of the ice cream. Today just felt like a breath of fresh air. It's rare to ever feel this happy, genuinely. We entered a restaurant taking in the wonderful smell of Cuban food. The waitress greeted us, sitting us down at a booth by the window. As conscious as I was, i lost focus staring out the window. This just might be better than what I thought. "So what have you been up to?" Reign asked curious. I quickly looked away from the window. "Uh" I said starting to smile awkwardly. "You fucked him" She said smirking. "No, not yet" Her eyes widen from my statement. "Yet?" She said leaning closer. "Well we're just dating ish?" I said smiling. "You really like him" she said smiling. "Yea" I said looking down. She smirked leaning back in her seat. "What?" "Nothing" she responded. "Okay, I'm just glad we good. I don't ever want to see you cry like that. I want you to be happy, you deserve it" i smiled sipping on my glass of water. "You deserve to be happy too" she said staring into my soul. I nodded and continued to talk about funny memories together enjoying our presence.

It's nice to be back