Lost Myself Without You

Chapter 3: Revealed a Big Secret

Hannah's past...☆

It was one sunny day when my life changed completely, I had found out something so dark and cruel about my life that has made a big change in me. I didn't know at first how to react, but once I was told about it, I could feel that something big inside died, Like if they just made me feel that my heart turned into stone.

I went to go with my boyfriend the baby daddy of my second child, to go grocery shopping, we were looking for rent to move out soon with my daughter and soon to be in my arms my son. I'm 6 months pregnant with a beautiful boy that I always wanted since the beginning, I was in the car when he started to speak.

He cleared his throat and pulled out a cigarette and lits it up, He looks at me worried about what's my reaction to what he was going to say, He looks down at his feet and begins,

Jesus: "I'm so sorry to be saying this Hannah but I think you deserve to know the truth, But you have to promise you won't say a word to anyone.!"

I looked at him worried about what he was about to say and nod my head.

He inhales the smoke of cigar and exhales.

Jesus: "Your parents aren't you're real parents Hannah, um.. your real parents are gone and you are adopted ever since, the people you know as your family aren't blood-related, the only blood related are you and your second oldest brother Mike.
I'm so sorry Hannah I just think you have every right to know."

I blinked twice as my eyes began to get watery, I could feel that something big died inside, those feelings I had for my mom and dad were gone once I found out their not my real parents, now I understand why I went through so much in life, why I had dealt with so much pain.

Why I had experienced almost getting raped by my "dad" now I know why he did what he did because he's NOT my real father. But sadly from it all is that my real blood-related parents are Dead... I felt lost like I was worthless for a moment I thought I was going back to depression again.

I sucked in my tears so Jesus wouldn't notice it had affected me what he has said, and so he can think it's not hurting at all, so he can think it's all okay, but deep inside it isn't. I got out of the car and took a deep breath outside hoping the air would help me forget and disappear from this world, wanted the whole Earth to suck me in so I can't feel what I'm feeling right now. I feel abandoned, I feel weak.

It sucks to know this at the age of 20 when you're already an adult. And for how long my stupid fake parents were going to keep this from me? If Jesus wouldn't talk it out I would have never known. I grabbed my daughter and took her inside the store with the grocery cart, she was sitting in the front seat while I was walking inside.

I started looking around and I could see people staring and I was staring back, I could feel my vision getting pitch black, I had a bad feeling about passing out, I started to feel my hands getting sweaty and slipping out of the grocery cart which I was holding on to, I could feel a pair of hands grabbed me from behind once my eyes closed shut.

-Beep Beep-

I blinked a few times and opened my eyes to see that I was laying in a hospital bed, On my right Jesus was sitting next to me with my daughter Destiny in his legs. I could feel the guilt he felt for telling me this kind of news knowing I am pregnant, But I had to know the truth of why things were happening to me that were awful, and the reason why is because I'm not their child I'm just a woman with no family, My only family is my daughter and boyfriend that's my baby daddy.

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