Lost Myself Without You

Chapter 7: Nothing Will Ever Be The Same

Hannah's past...☆

Whenever I try to move on from my past, I seem to never find a way out. But this time I took off from my house and went straight with a friend rockish type, emo stylish type of guy.

He has dark black hair and chocolate brown eyes. It was so hard not to fall for him but I will try to manage and make things unnoticeable. He had his eyes so perfect looking, it was kinda Chinese but he isn't Chinese though, He's Cuban 100% but loved the way his eyes looked.

He would look at me and I would try hard not to let him notice how much I liked his stare. He was wearing black jeans and sleeping with sirens shirt, along with vans.

He loves to skate by the way. He listens to rock music. He has one hoop piercing on his left lip, it was the sexiest thing you can ever see with your eyes. I on the other hand was wearing one as well but it was just the little stick with the silver ball, But mine was on the right corner of my lip.

I began to notice how calm I felt every time I was around him, I felt for a moment peace, and that's what I was looking for long time ago.

He was my high school sweetheart. He would always understand my pain everything. I would even go shoplifting with him, Even though that's not a good thing but still. He's my partner in crime.

He had a lot on his plate as well as I can see from what he told me about his mother, he was also adopted and his fake mother never loved him either.

So from that point of view, we did have something similar in common in our personal lives. I felt secure telling him about the drug abuse, the late-night self-harming, the hot steam showers that will burn my scars, and help me release the pain of my body.

I might seem psycho like my mom would always call me. But that wouldn't make me stop doing what I was. She never paid attention to me that's one of the issues.

I had gotten an exam from my English teacher and he had said that it will be 8 grades in order to pass to the next grade you will have to pass that test!

So guess what?

I passed it with 8 B's and that day I was so proud of myself I had gone happy to go home to tell my mom all about it.

When I got home I looked at her and said.

Hannah: "Hey mom just wanna tell you that I passed that exam that I was talking to you about, which means I'm passing to the next grade which is 10th next year."

She looked away from her phone, as always she was texting some guy there, even though she has a relationship with someone that lives with her under the same roof. But that wouldn't stop her from cheating either.

She looks at me and says.

Mother:" That's good that you are doing something good in your life at last."

I looked at her and raised an eyebrow.

Hannah: "Aren't you happy that I passed? Aren't you at least going to give me a hug for that?."

I had finished with tears in my eyes as she ignored what I had just said to her.

I had to run that day to my high school boyfriend, which for a matter of fact she thinks he's a bad influence to me.

I don't think so he just there when she isn't so how does that make him bad after all?

I mean common at least he understands the pain and everything I'm going through, while my mother all she cares about is having sex with her lovers before her actual husband gets home from work.

It sucks to leak it out that way but it's TRUE, my mother is a damn prostitute and I'm not proud of that either. She doesn't do it for us that we are her children. She does it for the money so she can get her actual husband out to fancy restaurants.

And me on the hand, as I'm the oldest sister in this family of hers that she created. I have to be my brother's babysitter whenever she has plans. Which of course my brothers and I are never in them.

Even though I try to pretend I don't know she does this as her "Job" she still doesn't find a way to do it on the down-low. She does it when my brothers and I are sleeping which is bullshit.

So yeah this part of my life with my mom I'm getting so sick and tired of it.

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