•°*∆ѕσηɡ ɓίɾδ∆*°• (Bill cipher x reader)

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(your pov)

I opened my lids with a shock, only to be greeted by darkness and itching pain shooting around my eyes. i couldn't see anything,it was black. i shot up,almost falling over due to not being able to see and the unbalance i've gained without my vision. i brought my fingers to my face and started inspecting my eyes, i retreated my hand when i felt a stinging feeling course though my orb,  'am i ...blind.?'

i started to huff in and out,it felt as if the world was spinning around me, i was going to throw up. i ran to where i supposed the kitchen was but instead ended up hitting a wall, i bounced back and felt around the room until i found the entrance to the cooking area. i felt around the countertops frantically, until i couldn't handle it anymore, i felt a cool metal like container inside the counters. i hunch my back over the opening and released the foul substance from my throat. once i finished i wiped my mouth with my wrist.   i finally made my way at the cabinets, reaching inside and rummaging around, i felt a scratchy but smooth roll of material.  'bandages..!' i thought hopefully.

i unrolled the medical item, carefully using my sense of feel to wrap the item around my now damaged and destroyed pair of eyes.    once i finished i replied the end of, drooping the roll to the floor. i walked with my feet back to the living area i presumed. once there i felt around the walls for the stairs, that way i could get to my room.i found the steps and took my time getting up them, clutching onto the rail tightly.    once i made it up i missed the last step, falling down with a thud.

"o-ouch.." i groaned in pain, picking myself up steadily. after i pushed myself of the cold ground, i used my hands on the walls to guide me around the hallway and to the door of my room. i opened it and closed, locking the door    i feel down onto my bed, already have memorized the layout of my room due to hiding in it all these year. once my frail body crashed to the sheet, i whimpered softly. crying, except i want.    i was confused, i brought my hands to my face, feeling for tears. but none came out to relieve my sadness. i must have damaged my eyes pretty badly, how can someone lose the ability to cry?

i racked my mind on how this unfortunate events could have happened to me. that's when the memories came back to me like a car crash. 'my mother did this to me..' 'how could she go this far..?' 'this is crazy i can't be blind' 'how did this happened to me' 'why did this happen to me'    thoughts raced through my mind at a unwanted speed. making my head spin. i signed, continuing to lie there in disbelief.    i decided to go see my mother, it could be a stupid choice, it could be the best decision, but something inside me continually begged me to confront her.

i stumbled out of my room, into the hallway, almost falling, i found the stars railing finally and tiptoed down the wooden blocks' i reached my destination, the bottom, i slowly made my way into the living room, searching for the hall leading to the room my mother and father used to to share.    as i walked down the hall,after finding it . i felt my finger tips graze along several cracks and scratches in the pain and walls. there most likely from all the times my mom would break and slit open alcohol bottles against the wooden borders, damaging them and its covering of beige paint.

once i finally made it to the entry to my mothers sleeping place, i felt a chill go up my spine, remembering the last time i walked into her room without permission or knocking. i was punished badly for that, enough to make me never want to enter ever again.    i decided to gain my courage and knock. i hit the wood three times, then another two. no answer, i was now starting to get anxious.    i opened the door out of pure will and braced myself for any impact of any sort that could come my way and harm me. but nothing came, my breathing hitched, was my mother not inside this room? where could she be.

i pushed myself to inspect the bedroom. as i walked in my bare feet squashed into the old, dirty carpet planted out on the floor.. i walked few more step forward, still being careful ......

' ♪there's something more..to this♪"

.....  i felt around the walls of the room, eventually hiding some sort of dresser and then a bed with a messy comforter laid atop it.  .......

'♪ That we have missed ♪ ' .......

i finally found a new item, if felt glassy 'must be a tv' that's strange, i didn't even think we needed one of these.  ......

'♪ things around here are suspicious..♪ '

......  i walked forward, finding a door with a chilling nob, maybe a bathroom. i opened the door to the washroom to search around.  ......

'♪ who can we put our trust in, what have they all been hiding?♪ '

.......  i felt around and touched at least two sinks, perfect for a relationship or married couple. i smiled at the thought of my dads face from the picture.  .......

'♪ secrets that lie in shadow♪ '

.......  i walked around a bit more until hitting something very heavy, almost d e a d weight.  i put my hands on them object and felt something different, A H A N D. it was lifeless i caressed it, this is my mother's hand, i just know it, but why isnt she doing anything, whys she so still.  ........

"♪ how much do they all know..?♪ '

........  my blood ran cold as i reached my hands up feeling a rope.  "mom..?" i asked shaking "you didn't...did you..?"  i felt my skin chill and the hairs on the back of my stand up. i step closer, realizing my feet have went under her feet, almost as if she was elevated, hanging.  ........

'♪ a place to full of mystery♪ '

........  that's when i came to the conclusion,  my mother, that i had always wanted gone, was d e a d . she was hanging right in front of me, limp and the life drained out of her.    "MOM!!" i screamed, hugging her corps, i tangled my fingers in her mangled hair    "NO MOM, DON'T BE GONE!!" i cried out to her muted mouth.    "please..." i whimpered. i imagined tears running down my cheeks.    but i had to face the reality, i was alone, my mother wasnt here anymore...    "mom".. i grabbed her hands    "mom please.." my body shook    "DON'T LEAVE ME BY MYSELF WITHOUT ANYONE,PLEASE,COME BACK" i yelled out  ....  i gave up.  ..she didn't come back, she was gone.  .....

'.♪ ..Is just a puzzle ..to .. be..solved..♪ '