2 days till online school starts.
I'm in set design for the school play.
They're having a going away party for me on Wednesday.
My Mom and step dad are back together.
I'm for sure going to Rosemount next year.
We're also moving back to Rosemount when our lease is up in January 2019.
I'm so excited!!!
I want to come out to my mom and make it known that I might have gender dysphoria.
I will definitely come out as Pan as a for sure fact.
My moms pretty accepting so I think it will go well.
I want to record it, maybe put my phone in my pocket while it's recording.
It'll be awkward if I have a camera in her face.
To be honest though, I think she already knows.
Incident was before I even knew I was pan. I asked for a binder for cosplay purposes, and my mom replied with:
"If there's something you need to tell me, it's okay."
The second thing was when I knew I was pan and was experimenting with binding. She walked in when I was changing and I had my shirt off.
I was wearing one bra the correct way and another backwards.
She asked why I had 2 bras on. I played it off (not very well) by saying:
"One didn't fit so I put another one to cover the rest"
She replied with glancing at the bra than glancing at my nervous face, suspiciously and saying "Okay"
Then walked out of my room.
The third one was when I had a trans flag in the Amazon cart for Lukes birthday. My mom thought I put it in there for me.
Not to mention I'm loud about talking about it with my friends. She most likely overhears me.
I'm not sure why I'm so afraid to come out.
I told this to Luke:
"Okay how bout this. If you promise to stay away from Alice I'll tell her to do the same for you. If that doesn't work then just wait till next year so I can help in person. Okay?"
He agreed, but I don't think he'll follow through with his promise.
