I did it.
Yesterday night, I came out to my mom.
I took a video but, because this is a book I can't put it in. It took a lot to keep myself from crying.
She totally accepts it and agreed to get me a therapist for it. She was actually smiley.
Luke was pushing me to come out until I actually did. I was sitting there next to her, my camera app open, my finger hovering over the record button.
I sat there for a good 4-5 minutes, breathing heavy and just trying to work up the nerve to JUST DO IT (I'm sorry😂😂) .
Afterwards, Luke was really proud and said he was gonna ask Mom for a binder.
When he came back he was saying this:
I'm writing a full thing to my dad.
All I asked was for a binder and she flipped out again.
Like you think this was a choice bitch you funny retard.
I need help what should I text my dad I told them I was trans but never asked for anything.
I helped him and said:
Just ask for a binder how ever you think it would please him. Offer to buy it with your own money.
He later told me how hard his week has already been.
He told me:
I just it's hard for me to even be alive all I want is to die rn but ima fight like hell.
My mom is making me wear girl clothes she's making me get hair extensions.. and I really just don't want this I really don't and I don't know once that happens idk what I'm going to do.
I repeatedly told him, he's his own person, his mom can't control him.
He told me that she's abusive and how mean she is. He told both me and Alice his dad was abusive too.
But, he also gave us evidence that none of that is true.
He said his dad would throw him in the basement when he was little, but, his Dad made their basement maybe 3-5 years ago.
He told me this:
I mean you usually see the lazy bad child that's usually after she pisses me off.
I replied with:
I see you yelling at her to make you food and tea. I see you after she brings you tea or food yelling at her to shut your door. I saw you earlier refusing to help her shovel. Just be a good child. Maybe if you do that, she'll feel more inclined to do things for you. Right now, she feels unappreciated and disrespected. You say you respect her, but think about it, do you really. I'm not trying to be mean, I'm just trying to be real.
I really doubt anything he's saying is true. He kind of made me mad at this point. I see his parents joke around with him all the time. Saying "ohhhh I'm gonna hurt you" and stuff like that. But all parents joke like that.
He's always being yelled at for messing with his brother and beating him up, because he does.
He tells me "Alice is always starting drama" but I don't think he realizes that he's the one doing it.
