I woke up at 7 am because my mom called but I was too tired to stay up, so I slept until 12pm.
I was thinking about Jonghyun today. I was crying a lot because of that. My heart hurt.
I was talking to Haley and told her about the BTS world tour. Haley, Alice, and I might go to the one in Chicago. We're excited for that.
Isabel told Alice that I said I was gonna break up with her when I never said that. That put her in a bad mood.
A bit before that, one of our friends was making a FF book and using us a characters. It was going well until she wasn't listening to Alice's or my opinions. Alice didn't care much but I did. If she wasn't going to listen to us, why even ask us?
I brought it up to Alice after the whole Isabel thing and she got mad. That put me in a bad mood to and my mom could tell. My mom told me I couldn't spend the night a Luke's and that put me on a worse mood. I know, I know that I sound spoiled but she's the one who offered and then she says I can't after she gets my hopes up. I make my emotions obvious to people sometimes. Sometimes I can't even help it. I really wanted to go to Luke's so I could spend time with someone my age that I'm not intimate with. I'm constantly with my younger sister, dog, and parents. I don't have any friends that live close to me. I'm not in physical school so I lack all physical social interaction. It sucks.
I just feel so small. It feels like there's a weight on my heart and I want to cry.
